Alone (part 8)

*Harry POV*

I had just managed to fall asleep after our busy day when my phone started to ring. I quickly jumped up and answered it.

-"H-hello?" I hear a really weak voice say on the other end.

-"Hey." I reply.

-"H-Harry?" I hear her manage.

-"Erica? Is that you?" I say extatic.

-"Ye-yeah."

-"I t-taught you were dead." I say crying now.

-"I wished I was..."

-"Please don't say that..."

-"I'm saying the truth."

-"I just wanted to say that I'm sorry for not texting at all this past month. Touring is pretty much time comsuming without counting all the traveling, and photoshoots and signings... I'm just really sorry... I really wish I could come and visit you but our record wont allow it... but I promis when the tour is done, so in about two months I'll fly fown to Montreal. It's a promise."

-"Harry you don't have to promise anything. I understand... I was just 'another one of your girls' you don't have to prove anything to me. Why would I ever image the big hot-shot Harry Styles would go out with a loner nobody who tried to kill herself. I think it would be best if we did not see each other again."

-"No Erica! You don't understand! You're not just anyone to me! You mean more then that! Please let me proove it?"

-"Harry save it. I've been hurt by one guy already today and I don't want to make it two. I've got to go now. I need rest. Bye." She told me hanging up right away. I had to go see her and prove her that she not no one. 

-"Who was that?" I hear Louis ask me.

-"Erica." I reply and it goes silent. "Remember how you told me to not screw it up with her?"

-"Yeah? Why?"

-"Because I think i just screwed everything up with her and I don't even know how."

-"Then mate, you better figure out a way to get things right." 

*Erica POV*

-Two months after the suicide attempt in a rehab center talking to a psycologue-

-"Tell me Erica, what are your biggest regrets?" My doctor asks me.

-"Shutting off the only two people who mattered the most to me, shutting off the only two people who treated me like a normal person, like a friend."

-"Who are these two people?"

-"Harry Styles and Charles Wildwood." I reply lookind down at my hands.

-"And what happened to Charles?"

-"After I tried to kill myself he had asked me if I could remember what had happened before I did what I did. So I told him about the phone call. And he told me I should go talk to the cops, that things were getting out of hands...But the thing is that at school he would avoid being seen hanging out with me because he did not want to loose his reputation...So I screamed at him that he did nothing to make matters better and to leave me alone and not come back... and even though he tries to text me from time to time I always ignore it."

-"Well Erica, that was a brave descision, and I think, looking at your position, that the fact he was avoiding being seen with you in public just made matters worse. Now tell me about Harry?"

-"Harry is a famous pop star, and you might not belive me when I tell you what I'm about to tell you. But he found me on the rooftop of my uncles hotel, where I liked to go to get away from the world, and he conforted me and made me feel as if I was worth something. The thing is that after his concert he had invited me to stay with him for a little while and he kissed me, but after that I never heard of him until the day after I tried to kill myself. He told me it was because of touring and work and all but I'm sure he could of managed to txt me in all that time. Since I told him we'd be best to not talk anymore, he hasn't texted me once. And the thing is that he had never done anything wrong really...It's just that now that I think about it he must be done touring, and he had promised to come back to montreal to visit me, but I don't think that's plausible anymore."

-"Erica you are doing much better now a days, and I think what you need the most would be a fresh start. And maybe having a famous pop star as your boyfriend would incresse the death treaths and the risks of you doing what you did again would grow bigger. Look thats it for today, but you're doing progress since the first time you came in." She says and I get up and walk back to my room. They did not allow any social media interaction in rehab so I would fill up my time with writing. Yes I'd write a diary, but I was also working on a book. I had been writing for over one hour until I heard someone knock on my door. One of the nurses came in and told me I had visitor and that she'd send him in. I quickly put my book away in my secret spot and sat down on my bed and started to fake read on of my books.

-"Hello..." I heard a familiar voice say.

-"Daddy!" I said jumping into his arms. 

-"Your mom will be here soon she just had to finish something up at work."

-"What brings you here?" I say as I start to walk with my dad towards the parc.

-"Well your mom and I have some news for you."

-"Good or bad?"

-"Good honey, good news." My dad says as we sit down on a bench to wait for my mom. A couple of minutes later we see her walk towards us and she sits down next to me huging me.

-"So tell me! What's the news!" I say excited.

-"Well I got offered a job." My dad says. 

-"Really where?!"

-"London!"

-"What!"

-"We are moving to London honey!" My mom says happily.

-"But what about your company mom?"

-"We are moving our headquaters to downtown London, and expanding to Paris. So I'll be flying from London to Paris quite often but I will be home more often then I am now."

-"We taught that maybe a fresh start in a big new town would be good! Your mom and I have already bought a big mansion out there with a bedroom twice the size as your old one and you'll just love it there! We are also going to be transfering you to a rehab center down in London. We are leaving next week." My dad tells me.

-"What about Elizabeth! She's like a second mother to me!"

-"We offered to fly her and her husband out to London with us. The house we bought has a small guest house hidden from the big house that would be perfect for them and they accepted!" My mom told me. I smile happily! I couldn't wait to get out of here!

The week went by quickly and before I knew it I was on the plane on my way to Londond. For the flight they had authorized my phone and I saw only a few texts. They where all from Harry. And I remember my last meet up with my psychologue telling me that maybe Harry as boyfriend would be bad but as a friend it could be good. So I decided to text him and tell him I was moving to London and I almost instantly got a reply back. I told him the rehab center I was staying at and where my new house was placed and i could just feel that he was overjoyed to hear from me.

Alone (Part 7)

*Harry POV*
-"Humm she attempted suicide this morning..." The guy who answered Erica's phone said and my phone just fell out of my hands. All the guys turned around to me woundering what just happened but I just fell down on the couch. I hadn't spoken to her in over a month because of touring and all the work that comes with it but I never taught it would come to this.
-"Harry?" Liam says with a straight concerned face. "What's wrong?"
-"Humm, you guys remember Erica?"
-"Yeah?" They all say.
-"Well..." I say trying to hold back tears. "She tried to kill herself this monring..." All the guys looked at me without knowing what to say. 
-"You should go see her mate." Niall says.
-"Niall you know we can't! The label would never allow one of us to leave during this tour!" Liam, the daddy of the group, replies.
-"It's okay Liam, I know I can't leave." I say trying to act okay about it but I wanted to go see her.
-"Look you'll call back tomorrow, maybe you'll get more information about what happened..." Liam says and I just shrug and walk to my bed with my phone in hand.

*Erica POV*
I wake up in a white room with a big bright light turned on. There was a big window looking out to something, a flower pot on the ground next to a a small sofa, and a bunch of machines hoocked up to me. I had no clue where I was but I could see my mom and dad standing close to each other in a corner, Charles trying to sleep on the sofa and Elizabeth looking out the window.
-"Mom?" I say practicaly whispering while trying to move. She quickly ran towards my bed and grabbed my hand while pushing me back to lie down. 
-"I'll go get the doctor." My dad says running off as Elizabeth and Charles got up and came closer to me.
-"Where am I?" I say and I could feel my voice sounded very weak.
-"You're in Montreal's Childrens Hospital and you'll be alright." My mom says.
-"What happened?" I ask trying to look around.
-"Hello miss Johnson, I am Doctor Higgins." A tall man with short blonde hair says.
-"Doctor, what happened?" I ask again.
-"You attempted suicide yesterday morning, you lost a lot of blood and unconscious for a long time. We almost taught that we wouldn't be able to bring you back, but you're a fighter. Now you will be staying here until we clear you to leave and after that we will be sending you to rehab. A phycologue will pass by later today to talk to you." M. Higgins says, and I just look down at my wrist and realize what I had done.

*Later that day*
Everyone had left the room except for Charles.
-"Hey." I say trying to smile.
-"Hey." He says siting down next to me on my bed.
-"Sorry I kind of ruined our sleep over." I say laughing a bit.
-"Oh it's okay I'm just glad you're alive. You know you scared me to death yesterday."
-"Yeah... I'm sorry..." I say looking away.
-"Hey do you remember anything about yesterday morning? Anything?" He says looking deep into my eyes.
-"Well.." I say looking away from him and holding back tears. 
-"Erica... tell me please..." 
-"I remember waking up and you were still sleeping so I decided to go grab a shower... but just as I was about to hop in I heard my phone ring so I ran to pick up thinking it was someone else, but in fact-" I start but I couldn't continue because I was crying to much.
-"What? Who was it?" 
-"Someone had called me to tell me to kill myself. He told me I was worthless and that i should just leave already." 
-"Stop. Don't tell me more." He says. "We got to call the cops about this. It's getting out of hand!"
-"Says the guy who avoids being seen with me in public!" I shout at him. "Get out Charles! GET OUT!"  He looks at me completely teared up and starts to walk away.
-"Oh I almost forgot, a guy called you yesterday while you were in the operation room. He didn't leave his name but whatever, take your phone. I'm going back home." He says placing my phone on the night table next to me. I rest my head back down and close my eyes tightly trying to not cry. I dry away my tears and pick up my phone and dial the last number that called me.

Alone (part 6)

I wake up the next morning and see Charles still asleep next to me, so I get out of bed and grab everything for a shower. Just as I turn on the water I start hearing my phone ringing so I quickly run to get it in my room and go back to the bathroom before answering it. Someone started to talk and I had no clue who it was...
-"You think no one knows? You think no one realizes? They all know you're worthless and you should take you're life away already! C'mon you can do it! No one loves you! Pick up that razor of yours already! Get away! Leave already! Why dont you just kill yourself!" The voice at the other end of the line says before hanging up and I just loose it. I put my phone on the counter and take off my house coat while crying silently and step into my shower. I grab my razor blade shaking and press firmly down on my wrists but instead of stopping the bleeding i sat down in my shower and let the blood flow.

*Charles POV*
I wake up and see that Erica is already awake and I hear the shower runing so figure shes taking one. So I pick up my phone and start to play on it, but the time goes by and the water is still runing. About 45 minutes later I decide to knock on the door but there is no answer so I knock and knock again and still no answer. I start to get scared and shout her name but no one answers. So I decide to break down her door and i find her lying unconscious with blood flowing down into the drains. 
-"Elizabeth!!!!" I scream loudly a few times until her nanny comes running into Erica's bathroom. She stops in the doorway and puts her hands over her mouth in shock. I was siting on the ground with her lying naked in my arms showing all the scars on her wrists, trying to get her to wake up.
-"Call 911!!!" I tell Elizabeth and she quickly runs off the grab a phone. A few minutes later paramedics are all over Erica and pulling her away on a stretcher trying to bring her back. Elizabeth and I are out at the front door looking at the ambulance leaving. I was covered in blood and was soaking wet bout i didn't care I just wanted to go to the hospital.
-"Go grab your bag Charles." Elizabeth says turning around towards the house. "I'm calling the chauffeur and I'll get a few things in a bag for her." I nod and run and grab my things and by the time I'm back outside Elizabeth was already waiting outside with the car. As we drive to the hospital Elizabeth calls Erica's mom, who was in Paris for fashion week, and her dad who was on a buisness trip in Chicago. 
When we got to the hospital they had already taken her into the operation room so all we could do was wait. I had remended taking her phone from the bathroom, so I started going threw it, she had a lot of death messages but one message stood out. It was a picture message sent over a month ago. So I opened it and saw a picture of her and a guy kissing. I quickly shut her phone and picked up one of those gossip magazines in the hospital lounge to pass the time. I never read those but it's all they had. I started flipping trough it until I landed on a page about this pop band called One Direction. The article was called 'Mistery girl?'. So I looked down at the pictures in the article and saw a picture of one of the guys from the band and Erica holding hands, and then another of them hugging, and a last one of  him escorting her to a car. My heart stoped. I was completely confused, I had so many questions, but a familiar ringtone interupted my taughts. It was Erica's phone so I slowly answered it and heard a manly voice at the other end.
-"Hey Erica..." The voice sounded kind of stressed.
-"Hum Erica is not here at the moment..." I reply trying not to sound as if I've been crying for ages.
-"Where is she?" The guy asks confused.
-"Well hum... she's in the operation room..." I reply.
-"What!? Why!?" He says in a very concerned tone.
-"Humm she attempted suicide this morning..." I say loosing it. But all I hear is a phone crashing to the ground and then a long beep so I hang up. And as I do that a doctor walks up to me and Elizabeth.
-"The operation went well. She is concious again but sleeping. She lost a lot of blood so she wont be leaving the hospital any time soon." The doctor says.
-"Okay." Elizabeth says.
-"When can we see her." I say.
-"You can go see her now but she is very weak and still sleeping." The doctor says but before he could even finish his sentence I was already gone.

"Like two peas in a podd"

*Harry POV*

Today was our last day out in whistler, and I hadn't spoken the Ana since last time she stormed out on me. The lads had done a good job at making me forget about her, up until today. They saw how I was kind of depressed and closed off from everyone so they decided to take me out for a bit of fun. I accept to go with them even though I didn't really want to. We all got dressed and started making our way out the door laughing and chatting about random things. We were about 10 minutes away from the cabin heading towards whistlers small village until I realized I had forgoten my phone. So I tell the boys that I'll meet them in town and I head back towards the cabin. The closer I get a figure gets bigger and bigger. I wasn't to sure what it was until I realized it was a person siting on our front steps... I start walking faster towards the chalet until I come to a complete stop about 5 feet away from our front door. I see a girl who look scared and confused, as if she was about to colapse right in front of me. She slowly looks up at me with red watery eyes, and without thinking I help her up and bring her inside. I sit her down on a sofa and give her a blanket to warm herself up while I go make some hot coco. A few minutes later I sit down in front of her waiting for her to talk but she stays silent.
-"I don't know why I came here." She finally mutters. " I just hoped into my car and I ended up driving up here."
-"It's okay." I say.
-"I know that I know nothing about you but I just needed someone..."
-"I'm here to talk."
-"This whole week everything has been wrong. At the beggining of the week my 6 year best friend kissed me and told me that he loved me, not liked me, loved me. And for some reason I turned him down, and since then he's been avoiding me. My parents are fighting all the time, and it's driving me crazy. You havn't texted me ever since I stormed out on you at the coffe shop. And nobody seems to realize that I'm sick! Nobody seems to realize that I cry myself to sleep all the time, or that I never eat anymore, or that I'm always alone! No one!" She says rasing her voice towards the end while her eyes get full of water.
-" I don't know how to help you with you best friend, or with you're parents, but it's true I could of texted you this week. I'm a big idiot and I know that, I'm sorry. But I guess I figured you'd be better off without me since I'm leaving tonight for England... I'm going back home." I say as I whipe away a few tears from her cheecks and sit down next to her. She looks down at her hands and avoids looking in my eyes, she stays silent and does not reply. So I pick my pride up in my hands and tell myself what the heck! "Look Ana, I'd be lying if I said that I didn't find you beautiful. I'd also be lying if I said that I did not want to kiss you right now, because I really do, but something is telling me that you should go find your best friend and give it a shot."  I get up so I don't do anything stupid and bring the mugs in the kitchen. I hear her slowly get up and walk towards me in the kitchen and stop right in front of me, only inches away.
-"You're probably right, but constating that I might never see you again and you wont remember me in two years when you're touring the world and have plenty of girls chasing you, I reckon that what I'm about to do is not that stupid." She tells me slowly getting closer and closer to my lips until I can feel them pressing against mine. I can't lie, it felt amazing, perfect, right. I would love to bring her with me but I couldn't do that to her. I knew she needed to go back to her normal everyday life. When she finally backed away from the kiss I took her in my arms and gave her the longest hug I've ever given anyone, because I knew she was right when she said that we might never see each other again...

"Like two peas in a podd"

*Ananya POV*
-The next day- 
My phone is buzzing and i know it's just telling me to get up but i don't want to, so I put it on snooze and fall back asleep. About 45 mins later i hear my mom shouting my name and telling me to get up but i don't reply and just stay in bed. A few minutes later my mom comes up to my room telling me to get out of bed but, again, I hide under my blankets.
-"Ana,  school starts in 15 minutes. Get you of bed and go to school!" My mom tells me.
-"I don't feel to well mom, can i just stay at home today?" I ask her, and she stares at me for a while and finally nods telling me it's alright and she will tell the school that you are sick today. Once she walks out of my room i fall straight back to sleep even though i can hear my phone buzzing away.

When I finally wake up I instantly check my phone, and see about 20 messages from Jake, two from my mom, and one from my dad, but none from Harry. I reply to my parents texts to assure them I'm fine but I ignore Jake's messages and put my phone in my pockets as I head downstairs.

As the day goes by the amount of texts and missed calls from Jake grow bigger, but every time I ignore them. Until I hear the doorbell ring. I moan as I set down my hot cup of french vanilla coffe on the table next to me and gradualy make my way to the front door. 
-"Jake?" I say kind of confused because at this time he should be in chemistry class.
-"Can I come in?" He say extremely nervous, which is wierd because he is never nervous.
-"Hmm yeah? I guess." I say awkwardly as I open the door for him and he walks straight for the living room.
-"Look I just wanted to say I'm sorry about yesterday... I wanted, well more I didn't want it to happen like that. We've been friends since we started high school and you've made those 6 years way less painfull then they could of been. And it's only in our final year together that I realized that you mean way more then "just a friend" to me. Next year in college I'm going to be completely lost and I don't want to loose you, because Ananya, you mean the whole world to me and I just can't imagine going on without you." He says and I just look at him in complete disbelief.
-"Jake..." I start but don't know what to say. " I know that must of been extremly hard to say, but I can't stop thinking about the future... Like what if we break up? that would not only mean the end of a relationship but also the end of a long long freindship. You're my best friend and have been with me through literraly everything, and I can't imagine a world without you by my side..."
-"Ana, we've been best friends for six years now, I know you like the back of my hand, I don't have to act fake with you and everything just seems to fall in place... Maybe we could just give this a shot?"
-"I know that it would all seem perfect. Me and you, together... But I don't know, somethings holding me back. Can I just think about it?" I say and I could see the sadness in his eyes almost as if he was holding back tears. I could feel my heart break, but I just couldn't go out with him right now.
-"It's okay." He says very softly. " I got to go now. Bye" 
He didn't even look back at me when he said the last few words he just walked straight out the door.

After that everything just felt off. Everything at school was different, and I felt as if the whole world was ignoring me. One day after school I found myself sitting in my car with the keys in and just staring straight foward. I started the car and drove off, I wasn't really sure where I was heading but it's as if I had a GPS in me that was making me drive somewhere, and before I knew it i was parked in front of the chalet where Harry was. I didn't get out of the car I just sat there in front of the small log cabin. I steped out of my car and sat down on the front steps. I didn't know exactly why I was here but something brought me here, something unexplicable. I waited for about 15 minutes siting on the front door steps until I saw a figure walking towards the cabin.




*Okay i've been very innactive lately sorry!!!! I had no insparation and kind of forgot about this blog... I'll try to be more active! Sorry!!! -xxx-Write soon*

"Like two peas in a pod"

Harry POV
I wait and wait for second, minutes, hours. She said she would show up almost and hour and a half ago but she is still not here. I don't know why I'm worried so much about why she has not shown, I mean we only met yesterday. The waitress of the coffee shop keeps pressuring me to leave so I can give the spot to other people but I stay at my spot.
Two hours has gone by and I finally see someone that looks a lot like her walk this way.
-"Harry! I'm so sorry I-" She starts but I cut her off.
-"No it's okay you have better things to do the hang with me."
-"I'm sorry! Something big came up after school and I needed to fix it."
-"Yeah yeah whatever, I have to leave now. Bye" I say grabbing my now cold mug and walk away.
-"You have no idea who I am. You have no idea what my story is or anything about. Fine if you don't believe what I just said but it's true.Goodbye." She shouts and storms by me and slams the stores door being her. I get many stares from everyone in the shop as I run out the door.
-"Ana. You are right. I have no idea who you are and what's your story but you know what? I would love to know it. If you could just give me a chance to get to know you? Please?"
-"Fine." She snaps.
-"We can-" I start but get cut off.
-"I said fine. Does not mean I'm going to hang out with you today. I have my own shit to take care of. So bye." She snaps again. I try to speak, I try to explain to her, I want to tell her why I stormed off, why I acted so poorly, but I can't. I just met her yesterday and I can't expect her to feel what I feel. I can't expect her to know me like the lads. I just can't. My tongue gets dry as I search for words just to keep her with me but nothing. Nothing comes out of my mouth I stand there silently watching her walk gracefully away. After a few minutes go by I snap back to reality and slowly confusingly make my way back to the chalet.   

"Like two peas in a podd"

*ANANYA POV*
I unlock the door to my house and the second I put one foot inside my parents jump on me. 
-"Ana! Where have you been!? I've been calling you none stop for the past hour! You said you would come straight home after piano class!" My mom shouts.
-"I have a little accident." I say looking for my words as I search for my phone in my purse.
-"An accident!? Are you hurt?" She says trying to not yell and a bit more concerned then before.
-"Yeah I had stopped to get a coffee and well I bumped into someone and I dropped my coffee all over me. So the person who ran into me offered to get me a new shirt and pay me a new coffee." I explain.
-"And it never passed threw your mind to call me...YOUR MOM... about your whereabouts."
-"Yes, well no, but anyways my phone was almost dead and on silent."
-"Go to your room as I think of a punishment. That's no excuse. Now run along, and don't argue with me." She tells me so I nod and quickly make my way to my room. I lay down on my bed and just fall asleep.

----The next day----
As I make my way to school my best friend runs into me, on purpose of course.
-"Ana! Will you ever take that thing out of your hands?" My best friend Jake says grabbing my phone.
-"Jake! Not funny. Give it back." I say as I jump around him to try and grab it back.
-"No. Ana I declare you have a phone addiction!" He says as I pull him down to the ground with me as I fall.
-"Jakieee. You know I hate you so much." I say after I fall on my back and he lands over me.
-"Oh I hate you too darling." He replies. Usually he would of gotten back up but this time he stayed over top of me and just looked me in the eyes for a while. I feel him going in closer but so many toughs pass inside my head. I think to myself that this could be amazing, going out with my best friend, but also how it could all be so bad. So without thinking I pull away, grab my phone and get up.
-"Hum I'm gonna be late for class. Catch you later! Bye." I quickly spit out and run off to my classes. As I sit down at my desk I finally get to check my messages. Everything seemed normal, a few messages from friends and other stuff but one message was new.
 'Hey Ana! Sorry I ran off on you this morning... I can't explain my reasons as they are private, but I'd love to grab your number in hopes to see you again :)'. I just can't help but blush. I quickly reply without hesitation. I type in my phone number and tell him it's all alright. He almost instantly text me back asking me if I want to meet up to make up for yesterday, and I accept. When the day had ended I managed to avoid Jake like a pro up until I was about to leave. 
-"Ana can we talk?" He says.
-"I kind of have to go meet someone..."
-"It wasn't really a question.'' He says closing my locker and pulling me to a private area in the school.
-"Look Ana..."
-"Jake we don't have to talk about it. It was an accident right. Your girlfriend dumped you a week ago and you miss her. I understand. It's okay."
-"No Ana. It was not an accident. The real story is that Melissa broke up with me because she could not stand me hanging out with you and she hated the idea. She told me 'I can see the way you look at her, you used to look at me the same way when we first started going out, but now you look at me and there's nothing.' I had no idea what to say. She told me that I could change her mind I just had to prove it, but I stood there like an idiot and watched her walk away."
-"Jake you-" I start but he cuts me off.
-"I let her walk away because she was right. I could not love her like she should be loved, because she was right. And I can't hold it in anymore." He says and grabs me gently and without letting me talk or think he kisses me gently. And as his lips press against mine I can feel my phone buzzing and I knew it was Harry wondering where I was but I was not capable of thinking at the moment. I was more then confused and my brain was just spinning.

---Here ya go ana ;) Part 3 :) It's actually hard to write like this :O Message me :) Hope you enjoy, write soon xoxo----