Monday, July 6, 2015
Tuesday, January 27, 2015
"Like two peas in a podd"
*Harry POV*
I leave the tickets on the shelf next to the door and walk out into the courtyard where I get jumped on by a bunch of fangirls. I brush off my tears and put a smile on my face before looking at all the beautiful women wanting me but none of them compared to Anas' beauty and grace.
I sign a few autographs and take a couple of pictures before hopping into the private car my manager had order for me. The whole drive and airplane ride felt like hell. Once I finally got to my hotel room I lied down on my bed and looked up at the ceiling for hours until Louis walked in.
-" You pumped for the concert tomorrow?" He asks.
-"Uhum" I mumble.
-"I don't know what happened, but I guess it's bad. All I can tell you is that we have a big big concert tomorrow and we all need you at your best. So go take a shower and head on to bed." Louis says pushing me up.
-The next day-
The whole day was spent getting ready for the concert, and the big night was upon us. It was only a few minutes before going on stage and I was more nervous then ever.
-"Is she here?" I keep on asking the guards and they all tell me she is not. We go on stage and preform all night and every chance I had I looked at the guards with a looked that they knew and they aways shook their head telling me she wasn't there. The whole concert I was off and everyone could see it but the boys did their best to cheer me up and get me back in the game. The concert was over and we had just finished our encore. The whole crew was cleaning up while we all rested. I asked once more if she had arrived but the answer hadn't changed. She still had not showed. It's in that moment that I knew it was over. That she would never show and it killed me.
I leave the tickets on the shelf next to the door and walk out into the courtyard where I get jumped on by a bunch of fangirls. I brush off my tears and put a smile on my face before looking at all the beautiful women wanting me but none of them compared to Anas' beauty and grace.
I sign a few autographs and take a couple of pictures before hopping into the private car my manager had order for me. The whole drive and airplane ride felt like hell. Once I finally got to my hotel room I lied down on my bed and looked up at the ceiling for hours until Louis walked in.
-" You pumped for the concert tomorrow?" He asks.
-"Uhum" I mumble.
-"I don't know what happened, but I guess it's bad. All I can tell you is that we have a big big concert tomorrow and we all need you at your best. So go take a shower and head on to bed." Louis says pushing me up.
-The next day-
The whole day was spent getting ready for the concert, and the big night was upon us. It was only a few minutes before going on stage and I was more nervous then ever.
-"Is she here?" I keep on asking the guards and they all tell me she is not. We go on stage and preform all night and every chance I had I looked at the guards with a looked that they knew and they aways shook their head telling me she wasn't there. The whole concert I was off and everyone could see it but the boys did their best to cheer me up and get me back in the game. The concert was over and we had just finished our encore. The whole crew was cleaning up while we all rested. I asked once more if she had arrived but the answer hadn't changed. She still had not showed. It's in that moment that I knew it was over. That she would never show and it killed me.
"Like two peas in a podd"
*Ananya's POV*
-Two years later-
I was walking towards my dorm room after my calculus class. It was finally the week-end and that meant that I would get to go see my boyfriend. I was so excited, almost skipping of joy but as I turn the key and open the door that joy and happiness completely vanishes. I feel my stomach get tight and I drop my books on the ground. I stand in spot for a good minute before I can manage to say something.
-"H" is all I manage to say before I start to hyperventilate. He gets up and runs to me to help me sit down. It felt like I had seen a ghost.
-"You don't have to speak, just take your time." He says and I take that seriously because I spend five minutes breathing loudly trying to forme a phrase or just say a word.
-"No." Is all I manage to say before I get up and start pacing the room. "Why? Why are you here? You should be on tour! You should be in...in Vancouver! You can't be here right now. No. Not now. Harry, why have you done this to me?"
-"Well we are preforming in Vancouver tomorrow night and I asked for a little favour..."
-"Harry you don't get what you're doing to me. I can't have these old feelings come back up! I'm with Jake, I have been for two years tomorrow. I can't have you come here and messing up something I know could probably be 'it'. Please oh please Harry."
-"I figured you'd still be going out with him."
-"Then why did you come?"
-"Because!" He says getting up and grabbing my forearms firmly. " Ever since I left you on whistler that night I've regretted it! I know I told you to go out with Jake, and I know that we had just met but for me you're the first girl that made me feel what it's like to have your mouth go dry and your stomach twist and just by looking in your eyes I could fall in love all over again. I was an idiot then and I probably still am, but I should of never told you to go out with Jake. I should of told you to wait for me. Now if you can tell me right here right now that you don't feel anything, that you don't ever see us together, then tell me now and I will leave and never return. But just think about this first, maybe Jake is 'the one' but maybe I am 'the one' for you. Maybe I'll be a stupid mistake but trust me that if it's a mistake it will be a good one but frankly I dont think it will be a mistake. You can give me the sign and I will be yours forever or I will never even try to contact you again... your choice." I look at him with big eyes, I was trying to process all the information but words come out my mind.
-"Get out. Please." I say with a trembling voice. Harry looks at my with big red eyes and a clear broken heart. He start walking away but stops at the doorway.
-"I brought a backstage VIP ticket for our concert tomorrow night. If you don't come then I will know for good that there will never be us but if you do, then that's a complete different story."
Wednesday, August 27, 2014
Louis imagine (Malin)
I walk into the big building my mom work at and headed straight for the elevator. Elevators terrified me but my mom office was at the top of the 30 story high building and I was also crutches. I'm not here to tell you the story about how I ended up in crutches because it's a complete different part of my life. No I'm here to tell you how I met Louis Tomlinson. So as I was saying, I had just stepped into the empty elevator and pressed on the button to close the doors, but as they were shutting I could see someone running towards the elevator. Right before the door shuts he puts his hand betwen them and they open.
"Ouf!" He says catching his breath. "I taught I was going to miss the elevator."
"It's not as if the elevator passes every hour." I say in a snobby, mean way.
"Well I'm already late for a meating with Simon Cowell. And well if you're here you probably know what he's like."
"Simon is my uncle." I reply looking at him with a death stare.
"Oh I'm sorry...?" He says asking for my name.
"Malin." I snap.
"I'm sorry Malin. I did not mean to offend you in any way. I was just stating that Simon can sometimes be..." He starts.
"No you're clearly saying that he's an ass. Well you kno what? You're one too." I say while putting my earphones in and playing my music at the max. A few minutes go by when all of a sudden, the lights in the elevator start to flicker and the elevator stops as the emergency lights turn on.
"Are you fucking kidding me!" I shout. The boy looks over at me and decides to sit down in as corner as I start to pace around in my crutches.
"You should sit down." He says trying to sound nice but I could hear a sharp tone in his voice.
"First you insult my uncle, then you give me orders." I snap at him.
"No I'm telling you to sit because we could be here a while and you are in crutches. " he says in an annoyed tone. I roll my eyes and sit down at the other end of the elevator. I curl up into a sort of ball, since my other leg was in a cast, and I hold on tighly to my pants and rock back and fort. I see from the corner of my eye the boy looking over at me. He was slowly moving close up next to me.
"I'm Louis by the way." He says once seated next to me. I fake a smile and a faint glance at him. " are you okay?"
" I am completely terrified of elevators." I tell him not looking into his eyes and holding back a few tears.
"Can I ?" He ask gesturing to put his arm around me. And in the moment I decided to push my hatred aside and let him. He then slowly and hesitantly put his arm around me. We sat in that position for over two hours until the elevator started to work again. He had spoken to me the whole time to keep my mind of things and it really helped.
*ding*
We finally heard the doors opening and a bunch of people standing I'm front of it waiting for us. Louis bleeped me up and brought me to the medics waiting at the other side of the door. As the medics were checking up on me Louis walked over and sat down next to me.
"I'm sorry for what I said about your uncle... I didn't mean it. I was thinking of making it up to you by taking you out to diner sometime?"
"Yeah that would be great." I say smiling big.
"Brilliant! Here's my number. Call me or text me when you're free for that diner." He says before giving me a quick peck on the cheeck and walking away.
"Ouf!" He says catching his breath. "I taught I was going to miss the elevator."
"It's not as if the elevator passes every hour." I say in a snobby, mean way.
"Well I'm already late for a meating with Simon Cowell. And well if you're here you probably know what he's like."
"Simon is my uncle." I reply looking at him with a death stare.
"Oh I'm sorry...?" He says asking for my name.
"Malin." I snap.
"I'm sorry Malin. I did not mean to offend you in any way. I was just stating that Simon can sometimes be..." He starts.
"No you're clearly saying that he's an ass. Well you kno what? You're one too." I say while putting my earphones in and playing my music at the max. A few minutes go by when all of a sudden, the lights in the elevator start to flicker and the elevator stops as the emergency lights turn on.
"Are you fucking kidding me!" I shout. The boy looks over at me and decides to sit down in as corner as I start to pace around in my crutches.
"You should sit down." He says trying to sound nice but I could hear a sharp tone in his voice.
"First you insult my uncle, then you give me orders." I snap at him.
"No I'm telling you to sit because we could be here a while and you are in crutches. " he says in an annoyed tone. I roll my eyes and sit down at the other end of the elevator. I curl up into a sort of ball, since my other leg was in a cast, and I hold on tighly to my pants and rock back and fort. I see from the corner of my eye the boy looking over at me. He was slowly moving close up next to me.
"I'm Louis by the way." He says once seated next to me. I fake a smile and a faint glance at him. " are you okay?"
" I am completely terrified of elevators." I tell him not looking into his eyes and holding back a few tears.
"Can I ?" He ask gesturing to put his arm around me. And in the moment I decided to push my hatred aside and let him. He then slowly and hesitantly put his arm around me. We sat in that position for over two hours until the elevator started to work again. He had spoken to me the whole time to keep my mind of things and it really helped.
*ding*
We finally heard the doors opening and a bunch of people standing I'm front of it waiting for us. Louis bleeped me up and brought me to the medics waiting at the other side of the door. As the medics were checking up on me Louis walked over and sat down next to me.
"I'm sorry for what I said about your uncle... I didn't mean it. I was thinking of making it up to you by taking you out to diner sometime?"
"Yeah that would be great." I say smiling big.
"Brilliant! Here's my number. Call me or text me when you're free for that diner." He says before giving me a quick peck on the cheeck and walking away.
Tuesday, August 26, 2014
Niall Imagine (Alexis)
"Taxi! Taxi!" I start yelling as I look down the streets of busy New York. I was going to a friends wedding and was already running late. It had taken me ages to pick the perfect outfit but I finally chose one.
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After yelling 'taxi!' for what seemed to be like ages, one finally stops and pulls up right next to me. Just as I hop into the car looking down into my clutch and telling the driver where to go, i hear someone else shut the door and say directions to the driver also. My head shoots up like a cannonball.
-"Scuse me. But I was in this cab before you." I tell the man next to me.
-''Then how come I'm in this cab also." The young blonde man tells me.
-''Look I've got a wedding to attend, and I'm already quite late. Now be a gentleman and grab another taxi." I start raising my voice.
-"Look I wish I could but I can't. Now we are going in the same direction so does it really matter? The driver will drop you off first then me. okay?" The man answers with an unfamiliar accent.
-"Fine." I reply after pouting for a few seconds. The young man smiles and sits back. A few awkward minutes go by in total silence and even the driver felt unconfortable.
-"You look stunning, by the way." The young foreign man says.
-''Thank you.'' I reply hiding a blush. I finally get a good look at him and damn did he look good.
-"My name is Niall." He says to try and make things less awkward.
-"I'm Alexis."
-"So who's wedding are you attending."
-"This women I work with. I don't really like her, but she begged me to come so I finally said yes."
-"So I'm guessing you don't really care about arriving late." He says laughing a bit.
-''Let's just say I'm going to be very fashionably late!" I say with a wink and laugh.
-"I'm sure that when you're going to walk trough the doors everyone is going to look at you in awe."
-"Why do you say that?"
-"Because you are by far going to be the prettiest women in there and no one will be able to keep their eyes off you." Niall tell's me and this time I could not hide my blush.
-''Oh stop it." I say looking down and giving him a little hit on the torso.
-"Hey, I don't lie. I always say what I think even when I shouldn't."
-"It's okay, I guess a compliment from time to time can't hurt." I say winking. We keep talking for a long while until the taxi stops in front of the venue where I would get out. I start going through my purse looking for change to pay.
-"Hey." Niall says.
-"Yes?" I ask looking into his deep blue eyes.
-"Why don't you ditch this wedding and come to this nice restaurant I heard about with me?" He asks me and I look around confused and think about his proposal for a while.
-"You know what? That sounds 100 times better then going to this wedding." I tell him and he smiles. He looks over at the cab driver and tells him an adress and then looks back at me.
-"This is going to be one heck of an expensive cab ride." I say laughing and Niall joins in.
-"Yes maybe but it will all be worth it." He says laughing but also sounding serious. And he was right about that, because a few years later he would bring me back to that same restaurant and propose to me.
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After yelling 'taxi!' for what seemed to be like ages, one finally stops and pulls up right next to me. Just as I hop into the car looking down into my clutch and telling the driver where to go, i hear someone else shut the door and say directions to the driver also. My head shoots up like a cannonball.
-"Scuse me. But I was in this cab before you." I tell the man next to me.
-''Then how come I'm in this cab also." The young blonde man tells me.
-''Look I've got a wedding to attend, and I'm already quite late. Now be a gentleman and grab another taxi." I start raising my voice.
-"Look I wish I could but I can't. Now we are going in the same direction so does it really matter? The driver will drop you off first then me. okay?" The man answers with an unfamiliar accent.
-"Fine." I reply after pouting for a few seconds. The young man smiles and sits back. A few awkward minutes go by in total silence and even the driver felt unconfortable.
-"You look stunning, by the way." The young foreign man says.
-''Thank you.'' I reply hiding a blush. I finally get a good look at him and damn did he look good.
-"My name is Niall." He says to try and make things less awkward.
-"I'm Alexis."
-"So who's wedding are you attending."
-"This women I work with. I don't really like her, but she begged me to come so I finally said yes."
-"So I'm guessing you don't really care about arriving late." He says laughing a bit.
-''Let's just say I'm going to be very fashionably late!" I say with a wink and laugh.
-"I'm sure that when you're going to walk trough the doors everyone is going to look at you in awe."
-"Why do you say that?"
-"Because you are by far going to be the prettiest women in there and no one will be able to keep their eyes off you." Niall tell's me and this time I could not hide my blush.
-''Oh stop it." I say looking down and giving him a little hit on the torso.
-"Hey, I don't lie. I always say what I think even when I shouldn't."
-"It's okay, I guess a compliment from time to time can't hurt." I say winking. We keep talking for a long while until the taxi stops in front of the venue where I would get out. I start going through my purse looking for change to pay.
-"Hey." Niall says.
-"Yes?" I ask looking into his deep blue eyes.
-"Why don't you ditch this wedding and come to this nice restaurant I heard about with me?" He asks me and I look around confused and think about his proposal for a while.
-"You know what? That sounds 100 times better then going to this wedding." I tell him and he smiles. He looks over at the cab driver and tells him an adress and then looks back at me.
-"This is going to be one heck of an expensive cab ride." I say laughing and Niall joins in.
-"Yes maybe but it will all be worth it." He says laughing but also sounding serious. And he was right about that, because a few years later he would bring me back to that same restaurant and propose to me.
Wednesday, August 13, 2014
Alone (Part 10)
I wake up the next morning later then usual, my hair was a complete mess, my eyes were all tired, and I felt very dirty. So I got up and walked over to the bathroom where I had already set out and outfit to wear today. I plugged my phone into my speaker and started blasting some one direction as I stepped into my steaming hot shower. I started dancing and singing along the each song in the shower, until little things started playing. Just as the song started I turned around to face the shower door and slipped. I grabbed on to the railings as quickly as possible and somehow managed to catch myself back up, but as I look around to the failling I caught, I see my scars. It's true that part of me just wanted to do it one last time but the I heard the chorus of little things start playing and I feel my courage come back. I decide to finish up quickly and get out of my room so those ideas didn't come back again.
As I start to walk around the rehab center it all seemed calm and empty. Usually I'd be in one of those classes they offer here but my nurse said to no attend any so I walked around and sad in the garden outside with a book a had borrowed from a friend I had made here. It was quite peaceful and calm as I drifted off into the book. I must have spend over 1h reading it before someone I had never seen before came and knock on my shoulder.
"Erica?" The young man said. From the way he was dressed I could tell he was as nurse but he must of just joined the team because he was very unfamiliar.
"Yeah?" I reply closing my book, that I was already halfway done.
"Come with me." He says helping me get up. He was walking me towards this part of the center I had never seen before, I had seen people enter this part but never come back, so I was kind of scared.
"Sit here, someone will come see you soon." He says. " and good luck out there!" He adds before disappearing down the corridor. Good luck out there? I keep repeating that sentence over and over woundering what it meant, until I saw my doctor walk out a room and telling me to come in. As I start waking into the room I see my mom and dad, my nanny Elizabeth and my rehab nurse all siting around a big table waiting for me and the doctor.
"I beg you are woundering what's going on?" My doctor asks me.
"Yeah kind of...?" I reply looking around the room
"Me and your parents have been talking for the past hour and I have been telling them all the precautions to take for your return, such as your visits you will have to come do starting with 3 times a week and gradually going down. But we have mostly been discussion about you're state in rehab." She tells me.
"Did I do something wrong?" I ask terrified.
"For a while we were thinking about sending you back home with the conditions I just named, but last week you had a kind of down, so we decided to not send you back right away. But last night when Harry came to visit, I was watching from a far how it went and so was your nurse, and well we have concluded...-" The doctor says looking at her files then back at me. " we have concluded that you are ready to be sent back home with these following conditions." The doctor says and keeps going on with the list of conditions but I just zone her out. I was overjoyed to finally go back home! All I wanted to so was text Harry and tell him the good news! But at the same time I was scared about going back home and relapsing. I quickly shake those dark thoughts out of my head and continue listening to the doctor.
~sorry for the short part :$ will write more soon!~Xxx
As I start to walk around the rehab center it all seemed calm and empty. Usually I'd be in one of those classes they offer here but my nurse said to no attend any so I walked around and sad in the garden outside with a book a had borrowed from a friend I had made here. It was quite peaceful and calm as I drifted off into the book. I must have spend over 1h reading it before someone I had never seen before came and knock on my shoulder.
"Erica?" The young man said. From the way he was dressed I could tell he was as nurse but he must of just joined the team because he was very unfamiliar.
"Yeah?" I reply closing my book, that I was already halfway done.
"Come with me." He says helping me get up. He was walking me towards this part of the center I had never seen before, I had seen people enter this part but never come back, so I was kind of scared.
"Sit here, someone will come see you soon." He says. " and good luck out there!" He adds before disappearing down the corridor. Good luck out there? I keep repeating that sentence over and over woundering what it meant, until I saw my doctor walk out a room and telling me to come in. As I start waking into the room I see my mom and dad, my nanny Elizabeth and my rehab nurse all siting around a big table waiting for me and the doctor.
"I beg you are woundering what's going on?" My doctor asks me.
"Yeah kind of...?" I reply looking around the room
"Me and your parents have been talking for the past hour and I have been telling them all the precautions to take for your return, such as your visits you will have to come do starting with 3 times a week and gradually going down. But we have mostly been discussion about you're state in rehab." She tells me.
"Did I do something wrong?" I ask terrified.
"For a while we were thinking about sending you back home with the conditions I just named, but last week you had a kind of down, so we decided to not send you back right away. But last night when Harry came to visit, I was watching from a far how it went and so was your nurse, and well we have concluded...-" The doctor says looking at her files then back at me. " we have concluded that you are ready to be sent back home with these following conditions." The doctor says and keeps going on with the list of conditions but I just zone her out. I was overjoyed to finally go back home! All I wanted to so was text Harry and tell him the good news! But at the same time I was scared about going back home and relapsing. I quickly shake those dark thoughts out of my head and continue listening to the doctor.
~sorry for the short part :$ will write more soon!~Xxx
Sunday, August 10, 2014
Alone (part 9)
*Harry POV*
The lads and I were on our way back to the hotel after our final concert of the tour, we were leaving the same night to head back home and we were all very stoked to go back and see our familly. But something changed that night, just one text changed my whole plans. We were supposed to go spend each two week with our familly's and then go and meet up in our London flat that we shared, but not me.
After I landed in Holmes Chaples where my mom picked me up, I explained to her my plans. She was sad to hear them but at the same time understood that it was an emergency. The week I spent with my mom and sister went by faster then I taught but I had to leave.
-"Harry take care okay." My mom tells me hugging me one last time before I hop on my train.
-"Mom I promise I will, and I'll be back soon okay." I reply pulling back from the hug.
-"Lilttle brother I know you can take care of yourself just fine, but just make sure you don't become the next reason for pushing that girl to her death." My sister tells me before hugging me.
-"I wont I swear!" I say giving her a smile and saying goodbye before stepping on my train. 'I'm comming for you Erica' I told myself as I looked out the window of the train while it started to puff away towards London.
*Erica's POV*
A week had gone by at my new rehab center (Nightingale Hospital), and it was all quite different. I had to start from scratch in therapy and learn how to trust and talk with new doctors I had never met. But today something felt different, there was a different vibe around here and I did not know what it was.
-"Miss Johnson." One of the nurses says opening up my room door just a crack. "There is someone requesting to see you."
-"But it's not visiting hours?" I tell her quite confused.
-"Yes I know, and usually we shoudn't allow them to come in and see you but this man won't leave until he gets to see you." She tell's me.
-"So...?" I ask wanted to know where she was going with all this.
-"We accepted his request and we will send him in shortly, but there will be a nurse standing out front of your open door listen up on the conversation and can interveen whenever she thinks the conversation can affect your rehabilitation." The nurse tell me and I smile.
A few minutes go by and a guy walks into my room dressed quite nicely.
-"Hello miss Johnson." The man says in a deep voice.
-"Hello Mister Styles." I say acting all cool and natural while resting back on my bed.
-"Now a little birdy has told me you are a big fan of my band but especially me." He says.
-"Well that might be a little bit of a lie but it's partly true."
-"Well what would you say to spend one hour with the one and only Harry Styles?"
-''I don't know that's a tough question but I think I'll have to say I'd rather spend it with the famous Louis Tomlinson." I say winking at Harry and laughing a bit.
-"Well then you'll still have to endure me for one hour because I'm not leaving until one of those nurses tells me to leave."
-"Fine then I guess, if I have to, I'll endure you for the hour." I try to say in a serious tone, but I couldn't help myself but laugh.
We talked for a whole hour about pretty much everything, he told me about his tour and I told him about how rehab has been but I knew in his eyes he wanted to know more, he wanted to know why.
-"Erica... please just tell me why you did this?" I finally asks and I look up at the nurse who was woundering if she should inteveen but I give her a look telling her it's okay.
-"After that phone call, so many things passed threw my mind. I tried to push it away and ignore it but it made me start to think...He's right, no one loved me, so I gave up on everything and told myself if no one actually loves me then why am I even here?" I start and I could see the pain in Harry's eyes. "Even when I woke up at the hospital I was enraged that I was still alive. I wanted to be done with my life already. It took my a long time to realize that my life was precious, and that people actually loved me. Gosh Harry you should of seen me when I first entered the rehab center back in Montreal! I was a mess!" I say laughing a bit at myself and so does he. "But with the therapy and all I realized that my life was precious and people actually loved me. My whole familly loved and they would fall apart if I had died. Elizabeth, my nanny, cares about me more then anyone in the world. My granny and grandpa love me also. And I know that may sound like no one but it's all I need."
-"You're a fighter you know." Harry says squeezing my hand tighly.
-"I know that I'll always be a bit insecure and scared, but whenever I'll look down at my scared covered wrist I'll remember all I've been trough and realize that I'm worth it." I finally say before the nurse walks into my room.
-"I think I have to go." Harry says looking up at the nurse and laughing a bit.
-"Yeah I think you do." I say laughing back. But before he leaves Harry takes me in his arms and hugs me for the longest time ever and gives me a soft kiss on the cheek then walks away. I can't help but smile while I look at him leave.
-"Erica it's cerfew, and tomorrow you won't be attending any of your schedualed therapy classes okay?" My personnal nurse says.
-"Why?" I ask while I settle under my blankets.
-"I don't know, but that's what your doctor told me to tell you." She replies before turning my light off and closing my door. Why would my therapy be canceled? I keep asking myself before falling asleep. I hope I didn't do something wrong.
The lads and I were on our way back to the hotel after our final concert of the tour, we were leaving the same night to head back home and we were all very stoked to go back and see our familly. But something changed that night, just one text changed my whole plans. We were supposed to go spend each two week with our familly's and then go and meet up in our London flat that we shared, but not me.
After I landed in Holmes Chaples where my mom picked me up, I explained to her my plans. She was sad to hear them but at the same time understood that it was an emergency. The week I spent with my mom and sister went by faster then I taught but I had to leave.
-"Harry take care okay." My mom tells me hugging me one last time before I hop on my train.
-"Mom I promise I will, and I'll be back soon okay." I reply pulling back from the hug.
-"Lilttle brother I know you can take care of yourself just fine, but just make sure you don't become the next reason for pushing that girl to her death." My sister tells me before hugging me.
-"I wont I swear!" I say giving her a smile and saying goodbye before stepping on my train. 'I'm comming for you Erica' I told myself as I looked out the window of the train while it started to puff away towards London.
*Erica's POV*
A week had gone by at my new rehab center (Nightingale Hospital), and it was all quite different. I had to start from scratch in therapy and learn how to trust and talk with new doctors I had never met. But today something felt different, there was a different vibe around here and I did not know what it was.
-"Miss Johnson." One of the nurses says opening up my room door just a crack. "There is someone requesting to see you."
-"But it's not visiting hours?" I tell her quite confused.
-"Yes I know, and usually we shoudn't allow them to come in and see you but this man won't leave until he gets to see you." She tell's me.
-"So...?" I ask wanted to know where she was going with all this.
-"We accepted his request and we will send him in shortly, but there will be a nurse standing out front of your open door listen up on the conversation and can interveen whenever she thinks the conversation can affect your rehabilitation." The nurse tell me and I smile.
A few minutes go by and a guy walks into my room dressed quite nicely.
-"Hello miss Johnson." The man says in a deep voice.
-"Hello Mister Styles." I say acting all cool and natural while resting back on my bed.
-"Now a little birdy has told me you are a big fan of my band but especially me." He says.
-"Well that might be a little bit of a lie but it's partly true."
-"Well what would you say to spend one hour with the one and only Harry Styles?"
-''I don't know that's a tough question but I think I'll have to say I'd rather spend it with the famous Louis Tomlinson." I say winking at Harry and laughing a bit.
-"Well then you'll still have to endure me for one hour because I'm not leaving until one of those nurses tells me to leave."
-"Fine then I guess, if I have to, I'll endure you for the hour." I try to say in a serious tone, but I couldn't help myself but laugh.
We talked for a whole hour about pretty much everything, he told me about his tour and I told him about how rehab has been but I knew in his eyes he wanted to know more, he wanted to know why.
-"Erica... please just tell me why you did this?" I finally asks and I look up at the nurse who was woundering if she should inteveen but I give her a look telling her it's okay.
-"After that phone call, so many things passed threw my mind. I tried to push it away and ignore it but it made me start to think...He's right, no one loved me, so I gave up on everything and told myself if no one actually loves me then why am I even here?" I start and I could see the pain in Harry's eyes. "Even when I woke up at the hospital I was enraged that I was still alive. I wanted to be done with my life already. It took my a long time to realize that my life was precious, and that people actually loved me. Gosh Harry you should of seen me when I first entered the rehab center back in Montreal! I was a mess!" I say laughing a bit at myself and so does he. "But with the therapy and all I realized that my life was precious and people actually loved me. My whole familly loved and they would fall apart if I had died. Elizabeth, my nanny, cares about me more then anyone in the world. My granny and grandpa love me also. And I know that may sound like no one but it's all I need."
-"You're a fighter you know." Harry says squeezing my hand tighly.
-"I know that I'll always be a bit insecure and scared, but whenever I'll look down at my scared covered wrist I'll remember all I've been trough and realize that I'm worth it." I finally say before the nurse walks into my room.
-"I think I have to go." Harry says looking up at the nurse and laughing a bit.
-"Yeah I think you do." I say laughing back. But before he leaves Harry takes me in his arms and hugs me for the longest time ever and gives me a soft kiss on the cheek then walks away. I can't help but smile while I look at him leave.
-"Erica it's cerfew, and tomorrow you won't be attending any of your schedualed therapy classes okay?" My personnal nurse says.
-"Why?" I ask while I settle under my blankets.
-"I don't know, but that's what your doctor told me to tell you." She replies before turning my light off and closing my door. Why would my therapy be canceled? I keep asking myself before falling asleep. I hope I didn't do something wrong.
Saturday, August 9, 2014
Alone (part 8)
*Harry POV*
I had just managed to fall asleep after our busy day when my phone started to ring. I quickly jumped up and answered it.
-"H-hello?" I hear a really weak voice say on the other end.
-"Hey." I reply.
-"H-Harry?" I hear her manage.
-"Erica? Is that you?" I say extatic.
-"Ye-yeah."
-"I t-taught you were dead." I say crying now.
-"I wished I was..."
-"Please don't say that..."
-"I'm saying the truth."
-"I just wanted to say that I'm sorry for not texting at all this past month. Touring is pretty much time comsuming without counting all the traveling, and photoshoots and signings... I'm just really sorry... I really wish I could come and visit you but our record wont allow it... but I promis when the tour is done, so in about two months I'll fly fown to Montreal. It's a promise."
-"Harry you don't have to promise anything. I understand... I was just 'another one of your girls' you don't have to prove anything to me. Why would I ever image the big hot-shot Harry Styles would go out with a loner nobody who tried to kill herself. I think it would be best if we did not see each other again."
-"No Erica! You don't understand! You're not just anyone to me! You mean more then that! Please let me proove it?"
-"Harry save it. I've been hurt by one guy already today and I don't want to make it two. I've got to go now. I need rest. Bye." She told me hanging up right away. I had to go see her and prove her that she not no one.
-"Who was that?" I hear Louis ask me.
-"Erica." I reply and it goes silent. "Remember how you told me to not screw it up with her?"
-"Yeah? Why?"
-"Because I think i just screwed everything up with her and I don't even know how."
-"Then mate, you better figure out a way to get things right."
*Erica POV*
-Two months after the suicide attempt in a rehab center talking to a psycologue-
-"Tell me Erica, what are your biggest regrets?" My doctor asks me.
-"Shutting off the only two people who mattered the most to me, shutting off the only two people who treated me like a normal person, like a friend."
-"Who are these two people?"
-"Harry Styles and Charles Wildwood." I reply lookind down at my hands.
-"And what happened to Charles?"
-"After I tried to kill myself he had asked me if I could remember what had happened before I did what I did. So I told him about the phone call. And he told me I should go talk to the cops, that things were getting out of hands...But the thing is that at school he would avoid being seen hanging out with me because he did not want to loose his reputation...So I screamed at him that he did nothing to make matters better and to leave me alone and not come back... and even though he tries to text me from time to time I always ignore it."
-"Well Erica, that was a brave descision, and I think, looking at your position, that the fact he was avoiding being seen with you in public just made matters worse. Now tell me about Harry?"
-"Harry is a famous pop star, and you might not belive me when I tell you what I'm about to tell you. But he found me on the rooftop of my uncles hotel, where I liked to go to get away from the world, and he conforted me and made me feel as if I was worth something. The thing is that after his concert he had invited me to stay with him for a little while and he kissed me, but after that I never heard of him until the day after I tried to kill myself. He told me it was because of touring and work and all but I'm sure he could of managed to txt me in all that time. Since I told him we'd be best to not talk anymore, he hasn't texted me once. And the thing is that he had never done anything wrong really...It's just that now that I think about it he must be done touring, and he had promised to come back to montreal to visit me, but I don't think that's plausible anymore."
-"Erica you are doing much better now a days, and I think what you need the most would be a fresh start. And maybe having a famous pop star as your boyfriend would incresse the death treaths and the risks of you doing what you did again would grow bigger. Look thats it for today, but you're doing progress since the first time you came in." She says and I get up and walk back to my room. They did not allow any social media interaction in rehab so I would fill up my time with writing. Yes I'd write a diary, but I was also working on a book. I had been writing for over one hour until I heard someone knock on my door. One of the nurses came in and told me I had visitor and that she'd send him in. I quickly put my book away in my secret spot and sat down on my bed and started to fake read on of my books.
-"Hello..." I heard a familiar voice say.
-"Daddy!" I said jumping into his arms.
-"Your mom will be here soon she just had to finish something up at work."
-"What brings you here?" I say as I start to walk with my dad towards the parc.
-"Well your mom and I have some news for you."
-"Good or bad?"
-"Good honey, good news." My dad says as we sit down on a bench to wait for my mom. A couple of minutes later we see her walk towards us and she sits down next to me huging me.
-"So tell me! What's the news!" I say excited.
-"Well I got offered a job." My dad says.
-"Really where?!"
-"London!"
-"What!"
-"We are moving to London honey!" My mom says happily.
-"But what about your company mom?"
-"We are moving our headquaters to downtown London, and expanding to Paris. So I'll be flying from London to Paris quite often but I will be home more often then I am now."
-"We taught that maybe a fresh start in a big new town would be good! Your mom and I have already bought a big mansion out there with a bedroom twice the size as your old one and you'll just love it there! We are also going to be transfering you to a rehab center down in London. We are leaving next week." My dad tells me.
-"What about Elizabeth! She's like a second mother to me!"
-"We offered to fly her and her husband out to London with us. The house we bought has a small guest house hidden from the big house that would be perfect for them and they accepted!" My mom told me. I smile happily! I couldn't wait to get out of here!
The week went by quickly and before I knew it I was on the plane on my way to Londond. For the flight they had authorized my phone and I saw only a few texts. They where all from Harry. And I remember my last meet up with my psychologue telling me that maybe Harry as boyfriend would be bad but as a friend it could be good. So I decided to text him and tell him I was moving to London and I almost instantly got a reply back. I told him the rehab center I was staying at and where my new house was placed and i could just feel that he was overjoyed to hear from me.
Alone (Part 7)
*Harry POV*
-"Humm she attempted suicide this morning..." The guy who answered Erica's phone said and my phone just fell out of my hands. All the guys turned around to me woundering what just happened but I just fell down on the couch. I hadn't spoken to her in over a month because of touring and all the work that comes with it but I never taught it would come to this.
-"Harry?" Liam says with a straight concerned face. "What's wrong?"
-"Humm, you guys remember Erica?"
-"Yeah?" They all say.
-"Well..." I say trying to hold back tears. "She tried to kill herself this monring..." All the guys looked at me without knowing what to say.
-"You should go see her mate." Niall says.
-"Niall you know we can't! The label would never allow one of us to leave during this tour!" Liam, the daddy of the group, replies.
-"It's okay Liam, I know I can't leave." I say trying to act okay about it but I wanted to go see her.
-"Look you'll call back tomorrow, maybe you'll get more information about what happened..." Liam says and I just shrug and walk to my bed with my phone in hand.
*Erica POV*
I wake up in a white room with a big bright light turned on. There was a big window looking out to something, a flower pot on the ground next to a a small sofa, and a bunch of machines hoocked up to me. I had no clue where I was but I could see my mom and dad standing close to each other in a corner, Charles trying to sleep on the sofa and Elizabeth looking out the window.
-"Mom?" I say practicaly whispering while trying to move. She quickly ran towards my bed and grabbed my hand while pushing me back to lie down.
-"I'll go get the doctor." My dad says running off as Elizabeth and Charles got up and came closer to me.
-"Where am I?" I say and I could feel my voice sounded very weak.
-"You're in Montreal's Childrens Hospital and you'll be alright." My mom says.
-"What happened?" I ask trying to look around.
-"Hello miss Johnson, I am Doctor Higgins." A tall man with short blonde hair says.
-"Doctor, what happened?" I ask again.
-"You attempted suicide yesterday morning, you lost a lot of blood and unconscious for a long time. We almost taught that we wouldn't be able to bring you back, but you're a fighter. Now you will be staying here until we clear you to leave and after that we will be sending you to rehab. A phycologue will pass by later today to talk to you." M. Higgins says, and I just look down at my wrist and realize what I had done.
*Later that day*
Everyone had left the room except for Charles.
-"Hey." I say trying to smile.
-"Hey." He says siting down next to me on my bed.
-"Sorry I kind of ruined our sleep over." I say laughing a bit.
-"Oh it's okay I'm just glad you're alive. You know you scared me to death yesterday."
-"Yeah... I'm sorry..." I say looking away.
-"Hey do you remember anything about yesterday morning? Anything?" He says looking deep into my eyes.
-"Well.." I say looking away from him and holding back tears.
-"Erica... tell me please..."
-"I remember waking up and you were still sleeping so I decided to go grab a shower... but just as I was about to hop in I heard my phone ring so I ran to pick up thinking it was someone else, but in fact-" I start but I couldn't continue because I was crying to much.
-"What? Who was it?"
-"Someone had called me to tell me to kill myself. He told me I was worthless and that i should just leave already."
-"Stop. Don't tell me more." He says. "We got to call the cops about this. It's getting out of hand!"
-"Says the guy who avoids being seen with me in public!" I shout at him. "Get out Charles! GET OUT!" He looks at me completely teared up and starts to walk away.
-"Oh I almost forgot, a guy called you yesterday while you were in the operation room. He didn't leave his name but whatever, take your phone. I'm going back home." He says placing my phone on the night table next to me. I rest my head back down and close my eyes tightly trying to not cry. I dry away my tears and pick up my phone and dial the last number that called me.
-"Humm she attempted suicide this morning..." The guy who answered Erica's phone said and my phone just fell out of my hands. All the guys turned around to me woundering what just happened but I just fell down on the couch. I hadn't spoken to her in over a month because of touring and all the work that comes with it but I never taught it would come to this.
-"Harry?" Liam says with a straight concerned face. "What's wrong?"
-"Humm, you guys remember Erica?"
-"Yeah?" They all say.
-"Well..." I say trying to hold back tears. "She tried to kill herself this monring..." All the guys looked at me without knowing what to say.
-"You should go see her mate." Niall says.
-"Niall you know we can't! The label would never allow one of us to leave during this tour!" Liam, the daddy of the group, replies.
-"It's okay Liam, I know I can't leave." I say trying to act okay about it but I wanted to go see her.
-"Look you'll call back tomorrow, maybe you'll get more information about what happened..." Liam says and I just shrug and walk to my bed with my phone in hand.
*Erica POV*
I wake up in a white room with a big bright light turned on. There was a big window looking out to something, a flower pot on the ground next to a a small sofa, and a bunch of machines hoocked up to me. I had no clue where I was but I could see my mom and dad standing close to each other in a corner, Charles trying to sleep on the sofa and Elizabeth looking out the window.
-"Mom?" I say practicaly whispering while trying to move. She quickly ran towards my bed and grabbed my hand while pushing me back to lie down.
-"I'll go get the doctor." My dad says running off as Elizabeth and Charles got up and came closer to me.
-"Where am I?" I say and I could feel my voice sounded very weak.
-"You're in Montreal's Childrens Hospital and you'll be alright." My mom says.
-"What happened?" I ask trying to look around.
-"Hello miss Johnson, I am Doctor Higgins." A tall man with short blonde hair says.
-"Doctor, what happened?" I ask again.
-"You attempted suicide yesterday morning, you lost a lot of blood and unconscious for a long time. We almost taught that we wouldn't be able to bring you back, but you're a fighter. Now you will be staying here until we clear you to leave and after that we will be sending you to rehab. A phycologue will pass by later today to talk to you." M. Higgins says, and I just look down at my wrist and realize what I had done.
*Later that day*
Everyone had left the room except for Charles.
-"Hey." I say trying to smile.
-"Hey." He says siting down next to me on my bed.
-"Sorry I kind of ruined our sleep over." I say laughing a bit.
-"Oh it's okay I'm just glad you're alive. You know you scared me to death yesterday."
-"Yeah... I'm sorry..." I say looking away.
-"Hey do you remember anything about yesterday morning? Anything?" He says looking deep into my eyes.
-"Well.." I say looking away from him and holding back tears.
-"Erica... tell me please..."
-"I remember waking up and you were still sleeping so I decided to go grab a shower... but just as I was about to hop in I heard my phone ring so I ran to pick up thinking it was someone else, but in fact-" I start but I couldn't continue because I was crying to much.
-"What? Who was it?"
-"Someone had called me to tell me to kill myself. He told me I was worthless and that i should just leave already."
-"Stop. Don't tell me more." He says. "We got to call the cops about this. It's getting out of hand!"
-"Says the guy who avoids being seen with me in public!" I shout at him. "Get out Charles! GET OUT!" He looks at me completely teared up and starts to walk away.
-"Oh I almost forgot, a guy called you yesterday while you were in the operation room. He didn't leave his name but whatever, take your phone. I'm going back home." He says placing my phone on the night table next to me. I rest my head back down and close my eyes tightly trying to not cry. I dry away my tears and pick up my phone and dial the last number that called me.
Alone (part 6)
I wake up the next morning and see Charles still asleep next to me, so I get out of bed and grab everything for a shower. Just as I turn on the water I start hearing my phone ringing so I quickly run to get it in my room and go back to the bathroom before answering it. Someone started to talk and I had no clue who it was...
-"You think no one knows? You think no one realizes? They all know you're worthless and you should take you're life away already! C'mon you can do it! No one loves you! Pick up that razor of yours already! Get away! Leave already! Why dont you just kill yourself!" The voice at the other end of the line says before hanging up and I just loose it. I put my phone on the counter and take off my house coat while crying silently and step into my shower. I grab my razor blade shaking and press firmly down on my wrists but instead of stopping the bleeding i sat down in my shower and let the blood flow.
*Charles POV*
I wake up and see that Erica is already awake and I hear the shower runing so figure shes taking one. So I pick up my phone and start to play on it, but the time goes by and the water is still runing. About 45 minutes later I decide to knock on the door but there is no answer so I knock and knock again and still no answer. I start to get scared and shout her name but no one answers. So I decide to break down her door and i find her lying unconscious with blood flowing down into the drains.
-"Elizabeth!!!!" I scream loudly a few times until her nanny comes running into Erica's bathroom. She stops in the doorway and puts her hands over her mouth in shock. I was siting on the ground with her lying naked in my arms showing all the scars on her wrists, trying to get her to wake up.
-"Call 911!!!" I tell Elizabeth and she quickly runs off the grab a phone. A few minutes later paramedics are all over Erica and pulling her away on a stretcher trying to bring her back. Elizabeth and I are out at the front door looking at the ambulance leaving. I was covered in blood and was soaking wet bout i didn't care I just wanted to go to the hospital.
-"Go grab your bag Charles." Elizabeth says turning around towards the house. "I'm calling the chauffeur and I'll get a few things in a bag for her." I nod and run and grab my things and by the time I'm back outside Elizabeth was already waiting outside with the car. As we drive to the hospital Elizabeth calls Erica's mom, who was in Paris for fashion week, and her dad who was on a buisness trip in Chicago.
When we got to the hospital they had already taken her into the operation room so all we could do was wait. I had remended taking her phone from the bathroom, so I started going threw it, she had a lot of death messages but one message stood out. It was a picture message sent over a month ago. So I opened it and saw a picture of her and a guy kissing. I quickly shut her phone and picked up one of those gossip magazines in the hospital lounge to pass the time. I never read those but it's all they had. I started flipping trough it until I landed on a page about this pop band called One Direction. The article was called 'Mistery girl?'. So I looked down at the pictures in the article and saw a picture of one of the guys from the band and Erica holding hands, and then another of them hugging, and a last one of him escorting her to a car. My heart stoped. I was completely confused, I had so many questions, but a familiar ringtone interupted my taughts. It was Erica's phone so I slowly answered it and heard a manly voice at the other end.
-"Hey Erica..." The voice sounded kind of stressed.
-"Hum Erica is not here at the moment..." I reply trying not to sound as if I've been crying for ages.
-"Where is she?" The guy asks confused.
-"Well hum... she's in the operation room..." I reply.
-"What!? Why!?" He says in a very concerned tone.
-"Humm she attempted suicide this morning..." I say loosing it. But all I hear is a phone crashing to the ground and then a long beep so I hang up. And as I do that a doctor walks up to me and Elizabeth.
-"The operation went well. She is concious again but sleeping. She lost a lot of blood so she wont be leaving the hospital any time soon." The doctor says.
-"Okay." Elizabeth says.
-"When can we see her." I say.
-"You can go see her now but she is very weak and still sleeping." The doctor says but before he could even finish his sentence I was already gone.
-"You think no one knows? You think no one realizes? They all know you're worthless and you should take you're life away already! C'mon you can do it! No one loves you! Pick up that razor of yours already! Get away! Leave already! Why dont you just kill yourself!" The voice at the other end of the line says before hanging up and I just loose it. I put my phone on the counter and take off my house coat while crying silently and step into my shower. I grab my razor blade shaking and press firmly down on my wrists but instead of stopping the bleeding i sat down in my shower and let the blood flow.
*Charles POV*
I wake up and see that Erica is already awake and I hear the shower runing so figure shes taking one. So I pick up my phone and start to play on it, but the time goes by and the water is still runing. About 45 minutes later I decide to knock on the door but there is no answer so I knock and knock again and still no answer. I start to get scared and shout her name but no one answers. So I decide to break down her door and i find her lying unconscious with blood flowing down into the drains.
-"Elizabeth!!!!" I scream loudly a few times until her nanny comes running into Erica's bathroom. She stops in the doorway and puts her hands over her mouth in shock. I was siting on the ground with her lying naked in my arms showing all the scars on her wrists, trying to get her to wake up.
-"Call 911!!!" I tell Elizabeth and she quickly runs off the grab a phone. A few minutes later paramedics are all over Erica and pulling her away on a stretcher trying to bring her back. Elizabeth and I are out at the front door looking at the ambulance leaving. I was covered in blood and was soaking wet bout i didn't care I just wanted to go to the hospital.
-"Go grab your bag Charles." Elizabeth says turning around towards the house. "I'm calling the chauffeur and I'll get a few things in a bag for her." I nod and run and grab my things and by the time I'm back outside Elizabeth was already waiting outside with the car. As we drive to the hospital Elizabeth calls Erica's mom, who was in Paris for fashion week, and her dad who was on a buisness trip in Chicago.
When we got to the hospital they had already taken her into the operation room so all we could do was wait. I had remended taking her phone from the bathroom, so I started going threw it, she had a lot of death messages but one message stood out. It was a picture message sent over a month ago. So I opened it and saw a picture of her and a guy kissing. I quickly shut her phone and picked up one of those gossip magazines in the hospital lounge to pass the time. I never read those but it's all they had. I started flipping trough it until I landed on a page about this pop band called One Direction. The article was called 'Mistery girl?'. So I looked down at the pictures in the article and saw a picture of one of the guys from the band and Erica holding hands, and then another of them hugging, and a last one of him escorting her to a car. My heart stoped. I was completely confused, I had so many questions, but a familiar ringtone interupted my taughts. It was Erica's phone so I slowly answered it and heard a manly voice at the other end.
-"Hey Erica..." The voice sounded kind of stressed.
-"Hum Erica is not here at the moment..." I reply trying not to sound as if I've been crying for ages.
-"Where is she?" The guy asks confused.
-"Well hum... she's in the operation room..." I reply.
-"What!? Why!?" He says in a very concerned tone.
-"Humm she attempted suicide this morning..." I say loosing it. But all I hear is a phone crashing to the ground and then a long beep so I hang up. And as I do that a doctor walks up to me and Elizabeth.
-"The operation went well. She is concious again but sleeping. She lost a lot of blood so she wont be leaving the hospital any time soon." The doctor says.
-"Okay." Elizabeth says.
-"When can we see her." I say.
-"You can go see her now but she is very weak and still sleeping." The doctor says but before he could even finish his sentence I was already gone.
"Like two peas in a podd"
*Harry POV*
Today was our last day out in whistler, and I hadn't spoken the Ana since last time she stormed out on me. The lads had done a good job at making me forget about her, up until today. They saw how I was kind of depressed and closed off from everyone so they decided to take me out for a bit of fun. I accept to go with them even though I didn't really want to. We all got dressed and started making our way out the door laughing and chatting about random things. We were about 10 minutes away from the cabin heading towards whistlers small village until I realized I had forgoten my phone. So I tell the boys that I'll meet them in town and I head back towards the cabin. The closer I get a figure gets bigger and bigger. I wasn't to sure what it was until I realized it was a person siting on our front steps... I start walking faster towards the chalet until I come to a complete stop about 5 feet away from our front door. I see a girl who look scared and confused, as if she was about to colapse right in front of me. She slowly looks up at me with red watery eyes, and without thinking I help her up and bring her inside. I sit her down on a sofa and give her a blanket to warm herself up while I go make some hot coco. A few minutes later I sit down in front of her waiting for her to talk but she stays silent.
-"I don't know why I came here." She finally mutters. " I just hoped into my car and I ended up driving up here."
-"It's okay." I say.
-"I know that I know nothing about you but I just needed someone..."
-"I'm here to talk."
-"This whole week everything has been wrong. At the beggining of the week my 6 year best friend kissed me and told me that he loved me, not liked me, loved me. And for some reason I turned him down, and since then he's been avoiding me. My parents are fighting all the time, and it's driving me crazy. You havn't texted me ever since I stormed out on you at the coffe shop. And nobody seems to realize that I'm sick! Nobody seems to realize that I cry myself to sleep all the time, or that I never eat anymore, or that I'm always alone! No one!" She says rasing her voice towards the end while her eyes get full of water.
-" I don't know how to help you with you best friend, or with you're parents, but it's true I could of texted you this week. I'm a big idiot and I know that, I'm sorry. But I guess I figured you'd be better off without me since I'm leaving tonight for England... I'm going back home." I say as I whipe away a few tears from her cheecks and sit down next to her. She looks down at her hands and avoids looking in my eyes, she stays silent and does not reply. So I pick my pride up in my hands and tell myself what the heck! "Look Ana, I'd be lying if I said that I didn't find you beautiful. I'd also be lying if I said that I did not want to kiss you right now, because I really do, but something is telling me that you should go find your best friend and give it a shot." I get up so I don't do anything stupid and bring the mugs in the kitchen. I hear her slowly get up and walk towards me in the kitchen and stop right in front of me, only inches away.
-"You're probably right, but constating that I might never see you again and you wont remember me in two years when you're touring the world and have plenty of girls chasing you, I reckon that what I'm about to do is not that stupid." She tells me slowly getting closer and closer to my lips until I can feel them pressing against mine. I can't lie, it felt amazing, perfect, right. I would love to bring her with me but I couldn't do that to her. I knew she needed to go back to her normal everyday life. When she finally backed away from the kiss I took her in my arms and gave her the longest hug I've ever given anyone, because I knew she was right when she said that we might never see each other again...
Today was our last day out in whistler, and I hadn't spoken the Ana since last time she stormed out on me. The lads had done a good job at making me forget about her, up until today. They saw how I was kind of depressed and closed off from everyone so they decided to take me out for a bit of fun. I accept to go with them even though I didn't really want to. We all got dressed and started making our way out the door laughing and chatting about random things. We were about 10 minutes away from the cabin heading towards whistlers small village until I realized I had forgoten my phone. So I tell the boys that I'll meet them in town and I head back towards the cabin. The closer I get a figure gets bigger and bigger. I wasn't to sure what it was until I realized it was a person siting on our front steps... I start walking faster towards the chalet until I come to a complete stop about 5 feet away from our front door. I see a girl who look scared and confused, as if she was about to colapse right in front of me. She slowly looks up at me with red watery eyes, and without thinking I help her up and bring her inside. I sit her down on a sofa and give her a blanket to warm herself up while I go make some hot coco. A few minutes later I sit down in front of her waiting for her to talk but she stays silent.
-"I don't know why I came here." She finally mutters. " I just hoped into my car and I ended up driving up here."
-"It's okay." I say.
-"I know that I know nothing about you but I just needed someone..."
-"I'm here to talk."
-"This whole week everything has been wrong. At the beggining of the week my 6 year best friend kissed me and told me that he loved me, not liked me, loved me. And for some reason I turned him down, and since then he's been avoiding me. My parents are fighting all the time, and it's driving me crazy. You havn't texted me ever since I stormed out on you at the coffe shop. And nobody seems to realize that I'm sick! Nobody seems to realize that I cry myself to sleep all the time, or that I never eat anymore, or that I'm always alone! No one!" She says rasing her voice towards the end while her eyes get full of water.
-" I don't know how to help you with you best friend, or with you're parents, but it's true I could of texted you this week. I'm a big idiot and I know that, I'm sorry. But I guess I figured you'd be better off without me since I'm leaving tonight for England... I'm going back home." I say as I whipe away a few tears from her cheecks and sit down next to her. She looks down at her hands and avoids looking in my eyes, she stays silent and does not reply. So I pick my pride up in my hands and tell myself what the heck! "Look Ana, I'd be lying if I said that I didn't find you beautiful. I'd also be lying if I said that I did not want to kiss you right now, because I really do, but something is telling me that you should go find your best friend and give it a shot." I get up so I don't do anything stupid and bring the mugs in the kitchen. I hear her slowly get up and walk towards me in the kitchen and stop right in front of me, only inches away.
-"You're probably right, but constating that I might never see you again and you wont remember me in two years when you're touring the world and have plenty of girls chasing you, I reckon that what I'm about to do is not that stupid." She tells me slowly getting closer and closer to my lips until I can feel them pressing against mine. I can't lie, it felt amazing, perfect, right. I would love to bring her with me but I couldn't do that to her. I knew she needed to go back to her normal everyday life. When she finally backed away from the kiss I took her in my arms and gave her the longest hug I've ever given anyone, because I knew she was right when she said that we might never see each other again...
"Like two peas in a podd"
*Ananya POV*
-The next day-
My phone is buzzing and i know it's just telling me to get up but i don't want to, so I put it on snooze and fall back asleep. About 45 mins later i hear my mom shouting my name and telling me to get up but i don't reply and just stay in bed. A few minutes later my mom comes up to my room telling me to get out of bed but, again, I hide under my blankets.
-"Ana, school starts in 15 minutes. Get you of bed and go to school!" My mom tells me.
-"I don't feel to well mom, can i just stay at home today?" I ask her, and she stares at me for a while and finally nods telling me it's alright and she will tell the school that you are sick today. Once she walks out of my room i fall straight back to sleep even though i can hear my phone buzzing away.
When I finally wake up I instantly check my phone, and see about 20 messages from Jake, two from my mom, and one from my dad, but none from Harry. I reply to my parents texts to assure them I'm fine but I ignore Jake's messages and put my phone in my pockets as I head downstairs.
As the day goes by the amount of texts and missed calls from Jake grow bigger, but every time I ignore them. Until I hear the doorbell ring. I moan as I set down my hot cup of french vanilla coffe on the table next to me and gradualy make my way to the front door.
-"Jake?" I say kind of confused because at this time he should be in chemistry class.
-"Can I come in?" He say extremely nervous, which is wierd because he is never nervous.
-"Hmm yeah? I guess." I say awkwardly as I open the door for him and he walks straight for the living room.
-"Look I just wanted to say I'm sorry about yesterday... I wanted, well more I didn't want it to happen like that. We've been friends since we started high school and you've made those 6 years way less painfull then they could of been. And it's only in our final year together that I realized that you mean way more then "just a friend" to me. Next year in college I'm going to be completely lost and I don't want to loose you, because Ananya, you mean the whole world to me and I just can't imagine going on without you." He says and I just look at him in complete disbelief.
-"Jake..." I start but don't know what to say. " I know that must of been extremly hard to say, but I can't stop thinking about the future... Like what if we break up? that would not only mean the end of a relationship but also the end of a long long freindship. You're my best friend and have been with me through literraly everything, and I can't imagine a world without you by my side..."
-"Ana, we've been best friends for six years now, I know you like the back of my hand, I don't have to act fake with you and everything just seems to fall in place... Maybe we could just give this a shot?"
-"I know that it would all seem perfect. Me and you, together... But I don't know, somethings holding me back. Can I just think about it?" I say and I could see the sadness in his eyes almost as if he was holding back tears. I could feel my heart break, but I just couldn't go out with him right now.
-"It's okay." He says very softly. " I got to go now. Bye"
He didn't even look back at me when he said the last few words he just walked straight out the door.
After that everything just felt off. Everything at school was different, and I felt as if the whole world was ignoring me. One day after school I found myself sitting in my car with the keys in and just staring straight foward. I started the car and drove off, I wasn't really sure where I was heading but it's as if I had a GPS in me that was making me drive somewhere, and before I knew it i was parked in front of the chalet where Harry was. I didn't get out of the car I just sat there in front of the small log cabin. I steped out of my car and sat down on the front steps. I didn't know exactly why I was here but something brought me here, something unexplicable. I waited for about 15 minutes siting on the front door steps until I saw a figure walking towards the cabin.
*Okay i've been very innactive lately sorry!!!! I had no insparation and kind of forgot about this blog... I'll try to be more active! Sorry!!! -xxx-Write soon*
-The next day-
My phone is buzzing and i know it's just telling me to get up but i don't want to, so I put it on snooze and fall back asleep. About 45 mins later i hear my mom shouting my name and telling me to get up but i don't reply and just stay in bed. A few minutes later my mom comes up to my room telling me to get out of bed but, again, I hide under my blankets.
-"Ana, school starts in 15 minutes. Get you of bed and go to school!" My mom tells me.
-"I don't feel to well mom, can i just stay at home today?" I ask her, and she stares at me for a while and finally nods telling me it's alright and she will tell the school that you are sick today. Once she walks out of my room i fall straight back to sleep even though i can hear my phone buzzing away.
When I finally wake up I instantly check my phone, and see about 20 messages from Jake, two from my mom, and one from my dad, but none from Harry. I reply to my parents texts to assure them I'm fine but I ignore Jake's messages and put my phone in my pockets as I head downstairs.
As the day goes by the amount of texts and missed calls from Jake grow bigger, but every time I ignore them. Until I hear the doorbell ring. I moan as I set down my hot cup of french vanilla coffe on the table next to me and gradualy make my way to the front door.
-"Jake?" I say kind of confused because at this time he should be in chemistry class.
-"Can I come in?" He say extremely nervous, which is wierd because he is never nervous.
-"Hmm yeah? I guess." I say awkwardly as I open the door for him and he walks straight for the living room.
-"Look I just wanted to say I'm sorry about yesterday... I wanted, well more I didn't want it to happen like that. We've been friends since we started high school and you've made those 6 years way less painfull then they could of been. And it's only in our final year together that I realized that you mean way more then "just a friend" to me. Next year in college I'm going to be completely lost and I don't want to loose you, because Ananya, you mean the whole world to me and I just can't imagine going on without you." He says and I just look at him in complete disbelief.
-"Jake..." I start but don't know what to say. " I know that must of been extremly hard to say, but I can't stop thinking about the future... Like what if we break up? that would not only mean the end of a relationship but also the end of a long long freindship. You're my best friend and have been with me through literraly everything, and I can't imagine a world without you by my side..."
-"Ana, we've been best friends for six years now, I know you like the back of my hand, I don't have to act fake with you and everything just seems to fall in place... Maybe we could just give this a shot?"
-"I know that it would all seem perfect. Me and you, together... But I don't know, somethings holding me back. Can I just think about it?" I say and I could see the sadness in his eyes almost as if he was holding back tears. I could feel my heart break, but I just couldn't go out with him right now.
-"It's okay." He says very softly. " I got to go now. Bye"
He didn't even look back at me when he said the last few words he just walked straight out the door.
After that everything just felt off. Everything at school was different, and I felt as if the whole world was ignoring me. One day after school I found myself sitting in my car with the keys in and just staring straight foward. I started the car and drove off, I wasn't really sure where I was heading but it's as if I had a GPS in me that was making me drive somewhere, and before I knew it i was parked in front of the chalet where Harry was. I didn't get out of the car I just sat there in front of the small log cabin. I steped out of my car and sat down on the front steps. I didn't know exactly why I was here but something brought me here, something unexplicable. I waited for about 15 minutes siting on the front door steps until I saw a figure walking towards the cabin.
*Okay i've been very innactive lately sorry!!!! I had no insparation and kind of forgot about this blog... I'll try to be more active! Sorry!!! -xxx-Write soon*
Friday, April 11, 2014
"Like two peas in a pod"
Harry POV
I wait and wait for second, minutes, hours. She said she would show up almost and hour and a half ago but she is still not here. I don't know why I'm worried so much about why she has not shown, I mean we only met yesterday. The waitress of the coffee shop keeps pressuring me to leave so I can give the spot to other people but I stay at my spot.
Two hours has gone by and I finally see someone that looks a lot like her walk this way.
-"Harry! I'm so sorry I-" She starts but I cut her off.
-"No it's okay you have better things to do the hang with me."
-"I'm sorry! Something big came up after school and I needed to fix it."
-"Yeah yeah whatever, I have to leave now. Bye" I say grabbing my now cold mug and walk away.
-"You have no idea who I am. You have no idea what my story is or anything about. Fine if you don't believe what I just said but it's true.Goodbye." She shouts and storms by me and slams the stores door being her. I get many stares from everyone in the shop as I run out the door.
-"Ana. You are right. I have no idea who you are and what's your story but you know what? I would love to know it. If you could just give me a chance to get to know you? Please?"
-"Fine." She snaps.
-"We can-" I start but get cut off.
-"I said fine. Does not mean I'm going to hang out with you today. I have my own shit to take care of. So bye." She snaps again. I try to speak, I try to explain to her, I want to tell her why I stormed off, why I acted so poorly, but I can't. I just met her yesterday and I can't expect her to feel what I feel. I can't expect her to know me like the lads. I just can't. My tongue gets dry as I search for words just to keep her with me but nothing. Nothing comes out of my mouth I stand there silently watching her walk gracefully away. After a few minutes go by I snap back to reality and slowly confusingly make my way back to the chalet.
I wait and wait for second, minutes, hours. She said she would show up almost and hour and a half ago but she is still not here. I don't know why I'm worried so much about why she has not shown, I mean we only met yesterday. The waitress of the coffee shop keeps pressuring me to leave so I can give the spot to other people but I stay at my spot.
Two hours has gone by and I finally see someone that looks a lot like her walk this way.
-"Harry! I'm so sorry I-" She starts but I cut her off.
-"No it's okay you have better things to do the hang with me."
-"I'm sorry! Something big came up after school and I needed to fix it."
-"Yeah yeah whatever, I have to leave now. Bye" I say grabbing my now cold mug and walk away.
-"You have no idea who I am. You have no idea what my story is or anything about. Fine if you don't believe what I just said but it's true.Goodbye." She shouts and storms by me and slams the stores door being her. I get many stares from everyone in the shop as I run out the door.
-"Ana. You are right. I have no idea who you are and what's your story but you know what? I would love to know it. If you could just give me a chance to get to know you? Please?"
-"Fine." She snaps.
-"We can-" I start but get cut off.
-"I said fine. Does not mean I'm going to hang out with you today. I have my own shit to take care of. So bye." She snaps again. I try to speak, I try to explain to her, I want to tell her why I stormed off, why I acted so poorly, but I can't. I just met her yesterday and I can't expect her to feel what I feel. I can't expect her to know me like the lads. I just can't. My tongue gets dry as I search for words just to keep her with me but nothing. Nothing comes out of my mouth I stand there silently watching her walk gracefully away. After a few minutes go by I snap back to reality and slowly confusingly make my way back to the chalet.
Thursday, March 27, 2014
"Like two peas in a podd"
*ANANYA POV*
I unlock the door to my house and the second I put one foot inside my parents jump on me.
-"Ana! Where have you been!? I've been calling you none stop for the past hour! You said you would come straight home after piano class!" My mom shouts.
-"I have a little accident." I say looking for my words as I search for my phone in my purse.
-"An accident!? Are you hurt?" She says trying to not yell and a bit more concerned then before.
-"Yeah I had stopped to get a coffee and well I bumped into someone and I dropped my coffee all over me. So the person who ran into me offered to get me a new shirt and pay me a new coffee." I explain.
-"And it never passed threw your mind to call me...YOUR MOM... about your whereabouts."
-"Yes, well no, but anyways my phone was almost dead and on silent."
-"Go to your room as I think of a punishment. That's no excuse. Now run along, and don't argue with me." She tells me so I nod and quickly make my way to my room. I lay down on my bed and just fall asleep.
----The next day----
As I make my way to school my best friend runs into me, on purpose of course.
-"Ana! Will you ever take that thing out of your hands?" My best friend Jake says grabbing my phone.
-"Jake! Not funny. Give it back." I say as I jump around him to try and grab it back.
-"No. Ana I declare you have a phone addiction!" He says as I pull him down to the ground with me as I fall.
-"Jakieee. You know I hate you so much." I say after I fall on my back and he lands over me.
-"Oh I hate you too darling." He replies. Usually he would of gotten back up but this time he stayed over top of me and just looked me in the eyes for a while. I feel him going in closer but so many toughs pass inside my head. I think to myself that this could be amazing, going out with my best friend, but also how it could all be so bad. So without thinking I pull away, grab my phone and get up.
-"Hum I'm gonna be late for class. Catch you later! Bye." I quickly spit out and run off to my classes. As I sit down at my desk I finally get to check my messages. Everything seemed normal, a few messages from friends and other stuff but one message was new.
'Hey Ana! Sorry I ran off on you this morning... I can't explain my reasons as they are private, but I'd love to grab your number in hopes to see you again :)'. I just can't help but blush. I quickly reply without hesitation. I type in my phone number and tell him it's all alright. He almost instantly text me back asking me if I want to meet up to make up for yesterday, and I accept. When the day had ended I managed to avoid Jake like a pro up until I was about to leave.
-"Ana can we talk?" He says.
-"I kind of have to go meet someone..."
-"It wasn't really a question.'' He says closing my locker and pulling me to a private area in the school.
-"Look Ana..."
-"Jake we don't have to talk about it. It was an accident right. Your girlfriend dumped you a week ago and you miss her. I understand. It's okay."
-"No Ana. It was not an accident. The real story is that Melissa broke up with me because she could not stand me hanging out with you and she hated the idea. She told me 'I can see the way you look at her, you used to look at me the same way when we first started going out, but now you look at me and there's nothing.' I had no idea what to say. She told me that I could change her mind I just had to prove it, but I stood there like an idiot and watched her walk away."
-"Jake you-" I start but he cuts me off.
-"I let her walk away because she was right. I could not love her like she should be loved, because she was right. And I can't hold it in anymore." He says and grabs me gently and without letting me talk or think he kisses me gently. And as his lips press against mine I can feel my phone buzzing and I knew it was Harry wondering where I was but I was not capable of thinking at the moment. I was more then confused and my brain was just spinning.
---Here ya go ana ;) Part 3 :) It's actually hard to write like this :O Message me :) Hope you enjoy, write soon xoxo----
I unlock the door to my house and the second I put one foot inside my parents jump on me.
-"Ana! Where have you been!? I've been calling you none stop for the past hour! You said you would come straight home after piano class!" My mom shouts.
-"I have a little accident." I say looking for my words as I search for my phone in my purse.
-"An accident!? Are you hurt?" She says trying to not yell and a bit more concerned then before.
-"Yeah I had stopped to get a coffee and well I bumped into someone and I dropped my coffee all over me. So the person who ran into me offered to get me a new shirt and pay me a new coffee." I explain.
-"And it never passed threw your mind to call me...YOUR MOM... about your whereabouts."
-"Yes, well no, but anyways my phone was almost dead and on silent."
-"Go to your room as I think of a punishment. That's no excuse. Now run along, and don't argue with me." She tells me so I nod and quickly make my way to my room. I lay down on my bed and just fall asleep.
----The next day----
As I make my way to school my best friend runs into me, on purpose of course.
-"Ana! Will you ever take that thing out of your hands?" My best friend Jake says grabbing my phone.
-"Jake! Not funny. Give it back." I say as I jump around him to try and grab it back.
-"No. Ana I declare you have a phone addiction!" He says as I pull him down to the ground with me as I fall.
-"Jakieee. You know I hate you so much." I say after I fall on my back and he lands over me.
-"Oh I hate you too darling." He replies. Usually he would of gotten back up but this time he stayed over top of me and just looked me in the eyes for a while. I feel him going in closer but so many toughs pass inside my head. I think to myself that this could be amazing, going out with my best friend, but also how it could all be so bad. So without thinking I pull away, grab my phone and get up.
-"Hum I'm gonna be late for class. Catch you later! Bye." I quickly spit out and run off to my classes. As I sit down at my desk I finally get to check my messages. Everything seemed normal, a few messages from friends and other stuff but one message was new.
'Hey Ana! Sorry I ran off on you this morning... I can't explain my reasons as they are private, but I'd love to grab your number in hopes to see you again :)'. I just can't help but blush. I quickly reply without hesitation. I type in my phone number and tell him it's all alright. He almost instantly text me back asking me if I want to meet up to make up for yesterday, and I accept. When the day had ended I managed to avoid Jake like a pro up until I was about to leave.
-"Ana can we talk?" He says.
-"I kind of have to go meet someone..."
-"It wasn't really a question.'' He says closing my locker and pulling me to a private area in the school.
-"Look Ana..."
-"Jake we don't have to talk about it. It was an accident right. Your girlfriend dumped you a week ago and you miss her. I understand. It's okay."
-"No Ana. It was not an accident. The real story is that Melissa broke up with me because she could not stand me hanging out with you and she hated the idea. She told me 'I can see the way you look at her, you used to look at me the same way when we first started going out, but now you look at me and there's nothing.' I had no idea what to say. She told me that I could change her mind I just had to prove it, but I stood there like an idiot and watched her walk away."
-"Jake you-" I start but he cuts me off.
-"I let her walk away because she was right. I could not love her like she should be loved, because she was right. And I can't hold it in anymore." He says and grabs me gently and without letting me talk or think he kisses me gently. And as his lips press against mine I can feel my phone buzzing and I knew it was Harry wondering where I was but I was not capable of thinking at the moment. I was more then confused and my brain was just spinning.
---Here ya go ana ;) Part 3 :) It's actually hard to write like this :O Message me :) Hope you enjoy, write soon xoxo----
Friday, January 17, 2014
"Like two peas in a podd"
*Harry's POV*
I run out of the coffee shop and jump into a cab. I tell him the hotel address and shout to him to leave as quickly as possible.
-"Shit." I say looking down at my phone.
-"You forgot something?" The cab driver says. I look back at the paps walking towards the coffee shop
-"Oh hum no... It's ok." I say at first. I was almost half way home when I came to the realization that my act was stupid.
-"STOP!" I shout to the driver. "I'm terribly sorry sir but can you drop me off here?"
-"No I don't just-" The driver starts
-"Here is the money for the drive thank you very much!" I say almost throwing the money on him. I jump out of the cad and start to make my way back towards the coffee shop. I keep on staring at my phone in hopes that maybe I gave her my number, in hopes that she will text me or call, in hopes for a miracle. But nothing happens, no one calls, no ones texts. I'm still walking with my head down making my way slowly back to where i met a beautiful girl but i run into someone who grabs me by the arm and pulls me into a black van. I sit down on one of the seats and look up with a face full of rage until I realize that everyone in the van was already looking at me with the same face.
-"What the hell! We told you to stay out of trouble. Stay out of sight!" A voice in the back says, Louis, I quickly think. I sit there in silence not wanting to answer.
-"Harry we have to stay low. Those are Simon orders." Liam calmly states. I mumble under my breath a few words of discontent and sit back in my chair. Once we get back to our lodge I quickly lock myself up in my room. I lie down on my bed and just stare at the wall when all of a sudden it hits me. Ananya is such an uncommon name! How many Ananya can there be in Vancouver? I quickly grab my laptop and log onto Facebook. I search up Ananya and add Vancouver as a hometown. Only a few people appear in the search log, and it was pretty easy to find her. I quickly send a friend request and send her a little message. 'Hey Ana! Sorry I ran off on you this morning... I can't explain my reasons as they are private, but I'd love to grab your number in hopes to see you again :)' I send with a pretty evident smile on my face. I shut my laptop and head on down stairs to join the rest of the lads in a few games of cards and what not.
~Sorry for not posting, this is my last year in high school and class is crazy... Hope fully I will post more often... but again I'm really sorry :$ Hope you enjoy this part Ana ^^~
I run out of the coffee shop and jump into a cab. I tell him the hotel address and shout to him to leave as quickly as possible.
-"Shit." I say looking down at my phone.
-"You forgot something?" The cab driver says. I look back at the paps walking towards the coffee shop
-"Oh hum no... It's ok." I say at first. I was almost half way home when I came to the realization that my act was stupid.
-"STOP!" I shout to the driver. "I'm terribly sorry sir but can you drop me off here?"
-"No I don't just-" The driver starts
-"Here is the money for the drive thank you very much!" I say almost throwing the money on him. I jump out of the cad and start to make my way back towards the coffee shop. I keep on staring at my phone in hopes that maybe I gave her my number, in hopes that she will text me or call, in hopes for a miracle. But nothing happens, no one calls, no ones texts. I'm still walking with my head down making my way slowly back to where i met a beautiful girl but i run into someone who grabs me by the arm and pulls me into a black van. I sit down on one of the seats and look up with a face full of rage until I realize that everyone in the van was already looking at me with the same face.
-"What the hell! We told you to stay out of trouble. Stay out of sight!" A voice in the back says, Louis, I quickly think. I sit there in silence not wanting to answer.
-"Harry we have to stay low. Those are Simon orders." Liam calmly states. I mumble under my breath a few words of discontent and sit back in my chair. Once we get back to our lodge I quickly lock myself up in my room. I lie down on my bed and just stare at the wall when all of a sudden it hits me. Ananya is such an uncommon name! How many Ananya can there be in Vancouver? I quickly grab my laptop and log onto Facebook. I search up Ananya and add Vancouver as a hometown. Only a few people appear in the search log, and it was pretty easy to find her. I quickly send a friend request and send her a little message. 'Hey Ana! Sorry I ran off on you this morning... I can't explain my reasons as they are private, but I'd love to grab your number in hopes to see you again :)' I send with a pretty evident smile on my face. I shut my laptop and head on down stairs to join the rest of the lads in a few games of cards and what not.
~Sorry for not posting, this is my last year in high school and class is crazy... Hope fully I will post more often... but again I'm really sorry :$ Hope you enjoy this part Ana ^^~
Sunday, September 15, 2013
"Like two peas in a podd"
~This imagine is for a good friend of mine named Ananya. Hope you enjoy :) ~
I'm walking down W Brodways close to downtown Vancouver. I was wearing a white long sleeve shirt, with a pair of blue jeans and my yellow hunter boots. My long curly hazel hair was in a low loose pony tail. I had a coffee in one hand and my iPhone in the other (http://polyv.re/18l7HRN) . I was texting my best friend not really paying attention to my path. All of a sudden Bam! I run into someone.
-"Shit! I'm sorry!" We say at the same time and laugh. I look down at my shirt and see a tea stain on it. I then look at the other persons shirt and realized I had poured all my coffee on their, ironically, white shirt. We both look up at each other and stare into one anothers eyes for a few seconds before we both stutter a "H-h-hi." at the same time. We laugh once more and blush.
-"My name is Harry." He says to break the confortable silence that had been created for a few seconds.
-''My name is Ananya, but you can call me Ana or Anne, your choice."
-"That's a beautiful name, I've never heard it before."
-"Well it's Indian, and it means unique."
-"Well it really suites you, because you really are unique." He replies and I blush.
-"I'm so sorry I dropped my hot tea on you." He says.
-"Well we were both obviously occupied and ironically holding hot drinks." I say. We had run into each other because we were both to occupied looking at our phones instead of looking where we were going.
-"Yeah sorry again... Anyways you want to go get new shirts and grab a tea, or coffee." He ask shyly.
-"That sounds good. There's a H&M shop just down the street, we can go there." I say and he nods. We walk to the shop trying to make small talk so there was no awkward silence. We arrive at the store and Harry runs towards a shirt and scans my body and grabs one off the rack. He then turns to another rack and grabs another shirt and gives them to me.
-"You would look good in these (Top 1 - Top 2). I roll my eyes and laugh.
-"Before I try them on I have to go find you a shirt." I say and he sighs in agreement. You make your way to the men section and grab a shirt for him (Top Harry).
-"Here try this on." I say giving him the shirt.
-"I want to see you in your shirt first." He says half begging.
-"Try it on at the same time?" I say smiling.
-"Fine." He pouts. We head to the dressing rooms and enter each a cabin. I walk out with the second top on and Harry was already out waiting for me.
-"You look good in that shirt that I picked." Harry states.
-"I can say the same mister. That shirts fits you well." I reply and add a small wink.
-"You still have a shirt to try on so go go! Quick. " He tells me. I step into the cabin and put on the second shirt and walk back out. Harry was leaning against the wall waiting for me. As I walk out his eyes go big. I was wearing the first top he picked out (top 1).
-"You look beautiful in that. No need to debate it you are getting that shirt." He says. "Now get back in there and give me that shirt so we can pay." I hurry back in there and change into my stained shirt. I put the shirt over the door and harry grabs it.
-"I''ll be at the cash!" He exclaims. I hurry out to find him paying for both our shirts.
-"Hey I could of payed for that."
-"I know." He says winking while he pays the cashier in cash. He passes me my shirt and we head back to the cabbing to put them on and change out of our dirty clothes. After we walk out of the store we head to a Starbucks a block up and grab a drink. I get a espresso and he takes a simple green tea.
-"So tell me about you Ana." He says as we sip on our drinks.
-"Well I'm 14." I say.
-"You look nothing like 14! I don't believe you."
-"Well I am.."
-"It's just you are way to beautiful and mature to be so young."
-"You're making me blush." I reply hiding behind my mug. He laughs and makes me put my mug down.
-"Don't hide behind your mug, I want to be able to see your beautiful face, especially those amazing eyes." He says and I smile at myself looking down at the ground.
-"Tell me more about you Ananya."
-"Well I'm into photography, I love fashion, my mom is a designer, I adore traveling and cars. I'm a hockey jock,and a dancer. Oh and I love music, especially writing it."
-"You write music?"
-"Yeah well I'd like to be a producer one day..."
-"Do you play any instruments?"
-''I play the flute, the piano, the guitar, and I'm learning how to play the violin also."
-"You play more instruments the me and I'm a musician!"
-"What do you mean?"
-"Well I'm in a band. We just came in third place on the X factor UK, and I am here on vacation with the rest of the boys. Like a ski trip."
-"That's so cool! So how old are you? Tell me about you."
-"I'm 16, hum, I sing, I-I." He starts but ends up stuttering as he looks out the window.
-"Oh shit!" He says.
-"What's wrong?" I ask.
-"Look I really have to go." He says getting up grabbing his tea. "It was really nice meeting you but I have to leave."
-"Um..." I say confused. "Well goodbye then..." But by then he had already run off. ' I didn't even get his number! He was really cute! Damn it!' I think to myself. I sigh and grab my coffee and head back home. I really wished I could of grabbed his number.
I'm walking down W Brodways close to downtown Vancouver. I was wearing a white long sleeve shirt, with a pair of blue jeans and my yellow hunter boots. My long curly hazel hair was in a low loose pony tail. I had a coffee in one hand and my iPhone in the other (http://polyv.re/18l7HRN) . I was texting my best friend not really paying attention to my path. All of a sudden Bam! I run into someone.
-"Shit! I'm sorry!" We say at the same time and laugh. I look down at my shirt and see a tea stain on it. I then look at the other persons shirt and realized I had poured all my coffee on their, ironically, white shirt. We both look up at each other and stare into one anothers eyes for a few seconds before we both stutter a "H-h-hi." at the same time. We laugh once more and blush.
-"My name is Harry." He says to break the confortable silence that had been created for a few seconds.
-''My name is Ananya, but you can call me Ana or Anne, your choice."
-"That's a beautiful name, I've never heard it before."
-"Well it's Indian, and it means unique."
-"Well it really suites you, because you really are unique." He replies and I blush.
-"I'm so sorry I dropped my hot tea on you." He says.
-"Well we were both obviously occupied and ironically holding hot drinks." I say. We had run into each other because we were both to occupied looking at our phones instead of looking where we were going.
-"Yeah sorry again... Anyways you want to go get new shirts and grab a tea, or coffee." He ask shyly.
-"That sounds good. There's a H&M shop just down the street, we can go there." I say and he nods. We walk to the shop trying to make small talk so there was no awkward silence. We arrive at the store and Harry runs towards a shirt and scans my body and grabs one off the rack. He then turns to another rack and grabs another shirt and gives them to me.
-"You would look good in these (Top 1 - Top 2). I roll my eyes and laugh.
-"Before I try them on I have to go find you a shirt." I say and he sighs in agreement. You make your way to the men section and grab a shirt for him (Top Harry).
-"Here try this on." I say giving him the shirt.
-"I want to see you in your shirt first." He says half begging.
-"Try it on at the same time?" I say smiling.
-"Fine." He pouts. We head to the dressing rooms and enter each a cabin. I walk out with the second top on and Harry was already out waiting for me.
-"You look good in that shirt that I picked." Harry states.
-"I can say the same mister. That shirts fits you well." I reply and add a small wink.
-"You still have a shirt to try on so go go! Quick. " He tells me. I step into the cabin and put on the second shirt and walk back out. Harry was leaning against the wall waiting for me. As I walk out his eyes go big. I was wearing the first top he picked out (top 1).
-"You look beautiful in that. No need to debate it you are getting that shirt." He says. "Now get back in there and give me that shirt so we can pay." I hurry back in there and change into my stained shirt. I put the shirt over the door and harry grabs it.
-"I''ll be at the cash!" He exclaims. I hurry out to find him paying for both our shirts.
-"Hey I could of payed for that."
-"I know." He says winking while he pays the cashier in cash. He passes me my shirt and we head back to the cabbing to put them on and change out of our dirty clothes. After we walk out of the store we head to a Starbucks a block up and grab a drink. I get a espresso and he takes a simple green tea.
-"So tell me about you Ana." He says as we sip on our drinks.
-"Well I'm 14." I say.
-"You look nothing like 14! I don't believe you."
-"Well I am.."
-"It's just you are way to beautiful and mature to be so young."
-"You're making me blush." I reply hiding behind my mug. He laughs and makes me put my mug down.
-"Don't hide behind your mug, I want to be able to see your beautiful face, especially those amazing eyes." He says and I smile at myself looking down at the ground.
-"Tell me more about you Ananya."
-"Well I'm into photography, I love fashion, my mom is a designer, I adore traveling and cars. I'm a hockey jock,and a dancer. Oh and I love music, especially writing it."
-"You write music?"
-"Yeah well I'd like to be a producer one day..."
-"Do you play any instruments?"
-''I play the flute, the piano, the guitar, and I'm learning how to play the violin also."
-"You play more instruments the me and I'm a musician!"
-"What do you mean?"
-"Well I'm in a band. We just came in third place on the X factor UK, and I am here on vacation with the rest of the boys. Like a ski trip."
-"That's so cool! So how old are you? Tell me about you."
-"I'm 16, hum, I sing, I-I." He starts but ends up stuttering as he looks out the window.
-"Oh shit!" He says.
-"What's wrong?" I ask.
-"Look I really have to go." He says getting up grabbing his tea. "It was really nice meeting you but I have to leave."
-"Um..." I say confused. "Well goodbye then..." But by then he had already run off. ' I didn't even get his number! He was really cute! Damn it!' I think to myself. I sigh and grab my coffee and head back home. I really wished I could of grabbed his number.
Tuesday, September 3, 2013
Alone (part 5)
*Erica's POV*
Once I get back home and into my room I scream into my pillow. This could not be true! It was all a dream it had to be. My phone then starts vibrating and I see the picture on my phone. This was not a dream. I look at my phone and see things I wish I had not seen. Stuff like 'go die in a whole', 'no one loves you', 'why are you still alive? Don't you understand no one loves you nor wants you!'. I only read a few of those messages and shut off my phone. Tears start to shed and I run to my bathroom. I hop into the shower and let the tears go down. I look up on my shampoo rack and see my razor. An idea comes into my mind as I grab the razor.
*A month and a half later*
I'm in math class siting in the corner alone like always.
-"Hey." I hear a familiar voice say. "How can you be wearing a long sleeve shirt in summer?"
-"Hey." I smile looking up at Charles. He had become a friend but he would not wanted to be seen in public with me so it would not affect his reputation, and I understood. He would talk to me a bit in class but rarely. "Oh I'm always cold."
-"I can't believe you." He says. "Anyways we still on for tonight?" He whispers.
-"Yeah." I smile and he turns around on his heals and walks over to his place. I look down at my notepad and realize all my drawings where about Harry. I sigh and try to hold back a tear. Since the concert he had not texted me. I knew he was touring and was probably really busy but still. He had not texted me once. The teacher walks into class and snaps me out of my thoughts.
*Later that night*
Charles was coming over for the night and was sleeping over since it was a Friday.
-"Hey Girl!" I hear him say as he walks into my room.
-"Oh hey mister!" I reply.
-"What's up?" He says siting down on my bed.
-"Nothing much...got any ideas of what we could do tonight?"
-"Movies, pizza and popcorn?"
-"Yeah perfect! Meet you in the home theater while I grab the popcorn, chips and candy?" I say grabbing my phone and jump onto my two feet. He smiles and nods and we walk out of the room. After grabbing the food I make my way to the home theater room. Charles had already picked out five movies.
-"Two horror movies? Do you not want me to sleep tonight?" I say dropping myself onto the couch next to Charles.
-"Maybe..." He says winking.
-"So Don't be afraid of the dark, Insidious, and all three lord of the rings!"
-"I say we start with insidious then end with don't be afraid of the dark." He suggest.
-"I guess so..." I say as he puts in the movie and I shut the lights and grab a few blankets.
-"You ready?" He asks pressing play.
-"I really hate you right now!"
-"Oh don't worry I'll protect you from those fake monsters." He says laughing but serious at the same time. As I crumble into a ball and hide under the blanket Charles puts his arm around me and I bury my head into his chest. By the time that movie had ended and we were at the second Lord of the ring, we were so close to one another not even a finger could fit between us and by the ending of Don't be afraid of the dark, his lips were on mine and he was over me. When the movie ended Charles got off of over me and we both sat up, there was a sort of awkward silence before we both got up.
-"Um, I'll be right back." He says walking out of the room as I smile. I start to pick up the food and head to the kitchen where I had left my phone. I open it an see tons of messages like the ones I always got. I hold back a few tears and put my phone into my pocket. I make my way into my room where I put on a tight v-neck white long sleeve shirt and some black shorts. I put my hair up into a messy bun and go wash my face. I walk out of the bathroom and see Charles siting on my bed.
-"Um the guest room is the second door on your left. You have your own bathroom and all if you want to take a shower." I tell him. His back was facing me and he seemed concentrated on something. I make my way closer to him and realize he had my phone in his hands and looked as he was about to cry.
-"I-I knew you got bullied at school but never knew it went to cyber-bullying."
-"Charles." I say grabbing my phone and trying to hold back tears. "I learned to ignore those messages." I lie. He looks at me and grabs my wrist. I bite my lip to hide the pain but it hurt so much and I pull my arm back.
-"We should go to bed it's almost 1 am." I tell him getting up and opening the door so he could get out. He let's out a small sigh and gets up. I close my door behind him and pull up me sleeve and look at my scars. I quickly put my sleeve down and throw my phone on my bed letting out a small scream. I turn my lights off and crawl under my blanket in my bed while tears came down.
My clock stated 2:30 am and I could not stop crying. All of a sudden I feel someone crawl into my bed next to me.
-"It's ok Erica. They are all stupid and especially wrong." Charles says and I turn around and put my head deep in his chest as he wraps his arms around me and reconforts me until we both fall asleep.
Once I get back home and into my room I scream into my pillow. This could not be true! It was all a dream it had to be. My phone then starts vibrating and I see the picture on my phone. This was not a dream. I look at my phone and see things I wish I had not seen. Stuff like 'go die in a whole', 'no one loves you', 'why are you still alive? Don't you understand no one loves you nor wants you!'. I only read a few of those messages and shut off my phone. Tears start to shed and I run to my bathroom. I hop into the shower and let the tears go down. I look up on my shampoo rack and see my razor. An idea comes into my mind as I grab the razor.
*A month and a half later*
I'm in math class siting in the corner alone like always.
-"Hey." I hear a familiar voice say. "How can you be wearing a long sleeve shirt in summer?"
-"Hey." I smile looking up at Charles. He had become a friend but he would not wanted to be seen in public with me so it would not affect his reputation, and I understood. He would talk to me a bit in class but rarely. "Oh I'm always cold."
-"I can't believe you." He says. "Anyways we still on for tonight?" He whispers.
-"Yeah." I smile and he turns around on his heals and walks over to his place. I look down at my notepad and realize all my drawings where about Harry. I sigh and try to hold back a tear. Since the concert he had not texted me. I knew he was touring and was probably really busy but still. He had not texted me once. The teacher walks into class and snaps me out of my thoughts.
*Later that night*
Charles was coming over for the night and was sleeping over since it was a Friday.
-"Hey Girl!" I hear him say as he walks into my room.
-"Oh hey mister!" I reply.
-"What's up?" He says siting down on my bed.
-"Nothing much...got any ideas of what we could do tonight?"
-"Movies, pizza and popcorn?"
-"Yeah perfect! Meet you in the home theater while I grab the popcorn, chips and candy?" I say grabbing my phone and jump onto my two feet. He smiles and nods and we walk out of the room. After grabbing the food I make my way to the home theater room. Charles had already picked out five movies.
-"Two horror movies? Do you not want me to sleep tonight?" I say dropping myself onto the couch next to Charles.
-"Maybe..." He says winking.
-"So Don't be afraid of the dark, Insidious, and all three lord of the rings!"
-"I say we start with insidious then end with don't be afraid of the dark." He suggest.
-"I guess so..." I say as he puts in the movie and I shut the lights and grab a few blankets.
-"You ready?" He asks pressing play.
-"I really hate you right now!"
-"Oh don't worry I'll protect you from those fake monsters." He says laughing but serious at the same time. As I crumble into a ball and hide under the blanket Charles puts his arm around me and I bury my head into his chest. By the time that movie had ended and we were at the second Lord of the ring, we were so close to one another not even a finger could fit between us and by the ending of Don't be afraid of the dark, his lips were on mine and he was over me. When the movie ended Charles got off of over me and we both sat up, there was a sort of awkward silence before we both got up.
-"Um, I'll be right back." He says walking out of the room as I smile. I start to pick up the food and head to the kitchen where I had left my phone. I open it an see tons of messages like the ones I always got. I hold back a few tears and put my phone into my pocket. I make my way into my room where I put on a tight v-neck white long sleeve shirt and some black shorts. I put my hair up into a messy bun and go wash my face. I walk out of the bathroom and see Charles siting on my bed.
-"Um the guest room is the second door on your left. You have your own bathroom and all if you want to take a shower." I tell him. His back was facing me and he seemed concentrated on something. I make my way closer to him and realize he had my phone in his hands and looked as he was about to cry.
-"I-I knew you got bullied at school but never knew it went to cyber-bullying."
-"Charles." I say grabbing my phone and trying to hold back tears. "I learned to ignore those messages." I lie. He looks at me and grabs my wrist. I bite my lip to hide the pain but it hurt so much and I pull my arm back.
-"We should go to bed it's almost 1 am." I tell him getting up and opening the door so he could get out. He let's out a small sigh and gets up. I close my door behind him and pull up me sleeve and look at my scars. I quickly put my sleeve down and throw my phone on my bed letting out a small scream. I turn my lights off and crawl under my blanket in my bed while tears came down.
My clock stated 2:30 am and I could not stop crying. All of a sudden I feel someone crawl into my bed next to me.
-"It's ok Erica. They are all stupid and especially wrong." Charles says and I turn around and put my head deep in his chest as he wraps his arms around me and reconforts me until we both fall asleep.
Sunday, September 1, 2013
Alone (part 4)
Harry and I turn our heads toward the door were we see Louis taking a picture and running off.
-"I'm going to kill him!" He whispers under his breath.
-"What's the worst he can do?" I ask.
-"Post it on twitter."
-"Go run along after him."
-"Thanks! Go hang in the dressing room and I'll be right back." He says pecking my lips. I watch him run out of the room and into the hall way.
-"I'll kill you Louis Tomlinson!" I hear Harry scream and I laugh. I walk out of the room and find my way to the dressing room where the boys were relaxing and some half sleeping.
-"Oh hey...Erica?" Liam says as he sees me walking in.
-"Hey." I say taking a seat at Harry's makeup chair.
-"I have a question...?" Liam asks. Niall was sound asleep on the couch and Zayn was half awake in his makeup chair.
-"Ask away!"
-"How do you and Harry know each other?''
-"It's kind of complicated... but we met on the rooftop of your hotel, that my dad owns."
-"Oh..." He says still confused. I could see he wanted to ask a question but kept it to himself. An awkward silent runs the room but luckily Harry runs in the room with Louis not far behind him.
-"Erica! Take the phone!" He says giving it to me. I catch the phone and look at it. There was the picture of Harry and I kissing. We actually looked cute and I could not help myself to smile. I sent the picture to myself and then deleted it from Louis' phone.
-"Here you go. The picture is deleted." I say giving the phone to Harry.
-"Thank you!" He says then gives the phone back to Louis. He walks over to me and sits down on my lap.
-"You're heavy you know?" I tell him.
-"I do. But I'm doing this on purpose you know." He winks.
-"Guys time to head into the bus and leave!" Paul says walking into the room. All the boys groan and get up except for Harry. They grab their things and walk out of the lodge.
-"It's my cue to leave..." He says sadly.
-"I guess it is." I answer as he gets up. We look around the room awkwardly before he puts his hands on the arms rest of the chair and goes down to kiss me. He pulls back biting his lip and helping me to my feet. We walk out of the room and head toward the exit. Once outside he tells me a car is waiting to bring me home and hugs me tightly. I could feel he wanted to kiss me one last time and I felt the same but by fear of paparazzi we don't. He pulls back from the hug and squeezes my hand once more before hopping into the bus.
*Harry's POV*
I squeeze her hand once more before stepping into the bus. All the boys had already gone of to bed except for Louis who was sitting all sassy on the couch waiting for me.
-"So mister not-so-single-anymore tell me more about her." He asks.
-"We are not dating. It was just a kiss! Now don't tell anyone!"
-"So you plan on kissing and running?"
-"No absolutely not! I just want to get to know her better before making it official and I want to make sure she wants the same thing."
-"If you say so. Just don't be a jerk Hazza."
-"I wont. Now good night." I say walking to my bed. As I lay down I check my phone. One message from Louis Tomlinson.
-She looks like a real keeper! Don't mess it up Hazza!-
With the picture of Erica and I kissing under it.
I smiled at the picture as I dozed off into a deep sleep. I wouldn't mess it up, I tell myself as I fall asleep.
-"I'm going to kill him!" He whispers under his breath.
-"What's the worst he can do?" I ask.
-"Post it on twitter."
-"Go run along after him."
-"Thanks! Go hang in the dressing room and I'll be right back." He says pecking my lips. I watch him run out of the room and into the hall way.
-"I'll kill you Louis Tomlinson!" I hear Harry scream and I laugh. I walk out of the room and find my way to the dressing room where the boys were relaxing and some half sleeping.
-"Oh hey...Erica?" Liam says as he sees me walking in.
-"Hey." I say taking a seat at Harry's makeup chair.
-"I have a question...?" Liam asks. Niall was sound asleep on the couch and Zayn was half awake in his makeup chair.
-"Ask away!"
-"How do you and Harry know each other?''
-"It's kind of complicated... but we met on the rooftop of your hotel, that my dad owns."
-"Oh..." He says still confused. I could see he wanted to ask a question but kept it to himself. An awkward silent runs the room but luckily Harry runs in the room with Louis not far behind him.
-"Erica! Take the phone!" He says giving it to me. I catch the phone and look at it. There was the picture of Harry and I kissing. We actually looked cute and I could not help myself to smile. I sent the picture to myself and then deleted it from Louis' phone.
-"Here you go. The picture is deleted." I say giving the phone to Harry.
-"Thank you!" He says then gives the phone back to Louis. He walks over to me and sits down on my lap.
-"You're heavy you know?" I tell him.
-"I do. But I'm doing this on purpose you know." He winks.
-"Guys time to head into the bus and leave!" Paul says walking into the room. All the boys groan and get up except for Harry. They grab their things and walk out of the lodge.
-"It's my cue to leave..." He says sadly.
-"I guess it is." I answer as he gets up. We look around the room awkwardly before he puts his hands on the arms rest of the chair and goes down to kiss me. He pulls back biting his lip and helping me to my feet. We walk out of the room and head toward the exit. Once outside he tells me a car is waiting to bring me home and hugs me tightly. I could feel he wanted to kiss me one last time and I felt the same but by fear of paparazzi we don't. He pulls back from the hug and squeezes my hand once more before hopping into the bus.
*Harry's POV*
I squeeze her hand once more before stepping into the bus. All the boys had already gone of to bed except for Louis who was sitting all sassy on the couch waiting for me.
-"So mister not-so-single-anymore tell me more about her." He asks.
-"We are not dating. It was just a kiss! Now don't tell anyone!"
-"So you plan on kissing and running?"
-"No absolutely not! I just want to get to know her better before making it official and I want to make sure she wants the same thing."
-"If you say so. Just don't be a jerk Hazza."
-"I wont. Now good night." I say walking to my bed. As I lay down I check my phone. One message from Louis Tomlinson.
-She looks like a real keeper! Don't mess it up Hazza!-
With the picture of Erica and I kissing under it.
I smiled at the picture as I dozed off into a deep sleep. I wouldn't mess it up, I tell myself as I fall asleep.
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