Monday, July 6, 2015
Tuesday, January 27, 2015
"Like two peas in a podd"
*Harry POV*
I leave the tickets on the shelf next to the door and walk out into the courtyard where I get jumped on by a bunch of fangirls. I brush off my tears and put a smile on my face before looking at all the beautiful women wanting me but none of them compared to Anas' beauty and grace.
I sign a few autographs and take a couple of pictures before hopping into the private car my manager had order for me. The whole drive and airplane ride felt like hell. Once I finally got to my hotel room I lied down on my bed and looked up at the ceiling for hours until Louis walked in.
-" You pumped for the concert tomorrow?" He asks.
-"Uhum" I mumble.
-"I don't know what happened, but I guess it's bad. All I can tell you is that we have a big big concert tomorrow and we all need you at your best. So go take a shower and head on to bed." Louis says pushing me up.
-The next day-
The whole day was spent getting ready for the concert, and the big night was upon us. It was only a few minutes before going on stage and I was more nervous then ever.
-"Is she here?" I keep on asking the guards and they all tell me she is not. We go on stage and preform all night and every chance I had I looked at the guards with a looked that they knew and they aways shook their head telling me she wasn't there. The whole concert I was off and everyone could see it but the boys did their best to cheer me up and get me back in the game. The concert was over and we had just finished our encore. The whole crew was cleaning up while we all rested. I asked once more if she had arrived but the answer hadn't changed. She still had not showed. It's in that moment that I knew it was over. That she would never show and it killed me.
I leave the tickets on the shelf next to the door and walk out into the courtyard where I get jumped on by a bunch of fangirls. I brush off my tears and put a smile on my face before looking at all the beautiful women wanting me but none of them compared to Anas' beauty and grace.
I sign a few autographs and take a couple of pictures before hopping into the private car my manager had order for me. The whole drive and airplane ride felt like hell. Once I finally got to my hotel room I lied down on my bed and looked up at the ceiling for hours until Louis walked in.
-" You pumped for the concert tomorrow?" He asks.
-"Uhum" I mumble.
-"I don't know what happened, but I guess it's bad. All I can tell you is that we have a big big concert tomorrow and we all need you at your best. So go take a shower and head on to bed." Louis says pushing me up.
-The next day-
The whole day was spent getting ready for the concert, and the big night was upon us. It was only a few minutes before going on stage and I was more nervous then ever.
-"Is she here?" I keep on asking the guards and they all tell me she is not. We go on stage and preform all night and every chance I had I looked at the guards with a looked that they knew and they aways shook their head telling me she wasn't there. The whole concert I was off and everyone could see it but the boys did their best to cheer me up and get me back in the game. The concert was over and we had just finished our encore. The whole crew was cleaning up while we all rested. I asked once more if she had arrived but the answer hadn't changed. She still had not showed. It's in that moment that I knew it was over. That she would never show and it killed me.
"Like two peas in a podd"
*Ananya's POV*
-Two years later-
I was walking towards my dorm room after my calculus class. It was finally the week-end and that meant that I would get to go see my boyfriend. I was so excited, almost skipping of joy but as I turn the key and open the door that joy and happiness completely vanishes. I feel my stomach get tight and I drop my books on the ground. I stand in spot for a good minute before I can manage to say something.
-"H" is all I manage to say before I start to hyperventilate. He gets up and runs to me to help me sit down. It felt like I had seen a ghost.
-"You don't have to speak, just take your time." He says and I take that seriously because I spend five minutes breathing loudly trying to forme a phrase or just say a word.
-"No." Is all I manage to say before I get up and start pacing the room. "Why? Why are you here? You should be on tour! You should be in...in Vancouver! You can't be here right now. No. Not now. Harry, why have you done this to me?"
-"Well we are preforming in Vancouver tomorrow night and I asked for a little favour..."
-"Harry you don't get what you're doing to me. I can't have these old feelings come back up! I'm with Jake, I have been for two years tomorrow. I can't have you come here and messing up something I know could probably be 'it'. Please oh please Harry."
-"I figured you'd still be going out with him."
-"Then why did you come?"
-"Because!" He says getting up and grabbing my forearms firmly. " Ever since I left you on whistler that night I've regretted it! I know I told you to go out with Jake, and I know that we had just met but for me you're the first girl that made me feel what it's like to have your mouth go dry and your stomach twist and just by looking in your eyes I could fall in love all over again. I was an idiot then and I probably still am, but I should of never told you to go out with Jake. I should of told you to wait for me. Now if you can tell me right here right now that you don't feel anything, that you don't ever see us together, then tell me now and I will leave and never return. But just think about this first, maybe Jake is 'the one' but maybe I am 'the one' for you. Maybe I'll be a stupid mistake but trust me that if it's a mistake it will be a good one but frankly I dont think it will be a mistake. You can give me the sign and I will be yours forever or I will never even try to contact you again... your choice." I look at him with big eyes, I was trying to process all the information but words come out my mind.
-"Get out. Please." I say with a trembling voice. Harry looks at my with big red eyes and a clear broken heart. He start walking away but stops at the doorway.
-"I brought a backstage VIP ticket for our concert tomorrow night. If you don't come then I will know for good that there will never be us but if you do, then that's a complete different story."
Wednesday, August 27, 2014
Louis imagine (Malin)
I walk into the big building my mom work at and headed straight for the elevator. Elevators terrified me but my mom office was at the top of the 30 story high building and I was also crutches. I'm not here to tell you the story about how I ended up in crutches because it's a complete different part of my life. No I'm here to tell you how I met Louis Tomlinson. So as I was saying, I had just stepped into the empty elevator and pressed on the button to close the doors, but as they were shutting I could see someone running towards the elevator. Right before the door shuts he puts his hand betwen them and they open.
"Ouf!" He says catching his breath. "I taught I was going to miss the elevator."
"It's not as if the elevator passes every hour." I say in a snobby, mean way.
"Well I'm already late for a meating with Simon Cowell. And well if you're here you probably know what he's like."
"Simon is my uncle." I reply looking at him with a death stare.
"Oh I'm sorry...?" He says asking for my name.
"Malin." I snap.
"I'm sorry Malin. I did not mean to offend you in any way. I was just stating that Simon can sometimes be..." He starts.
"No you're clearly saying that he's an ass. Well you kno what? You're one too." I say while putting my earphones in and playing my music at the max. A few minutes go by when all of a sudden, the lights in the elevator start to flicker and the elevator stops as the emergency lights turn on.
"Are you fucking kidding me!" I shout. The boy looks over at me and decides to sit down in as corner as I start to pace around in my crutches.
"You should sit down." He says trying to sound nice but I could hear a sharp tone in his voice.
"First you insult my uncle, then you give me orders." I snap at him.
"No I'm telling you to sit because we could be here a while and you are in crutches. " he says in an annoyed tone. I roll my eyes and sit down at the other end of the elevator. I curl up into a sort of ball, since my other leg was in a cast, and I hold on tighly to my pants and rock back and fort. I see from the corner of my eye the boy looking over at me. He was slowly moving close up next to me.
"I'm Louis by the way." He says once seated next to me. I fake a smile and a faint glance at him. " are you okay?"
" I am completely terrified of elevators." I tell him not looking into his eyes and holding back a few tears.
"Can I ?" He ask gesturing to put his arm around me. And in the moment I decided to push my hatred aside and let him. He then slowly and hesitantly put his arm around me. We sat in that position for over two hours until the elevator started to work again. He had spoken to me the whole time to keep my mind of things and it really helped.
*ding*
We finally heard the doors opening and a bunch of people standing I'm front of it waiting for us. Louis bleeped me up and brought me to the medics waiting at the other side of the door. As the medics were checking up on me Louis walked over and sat down next to me.
"I'm sorry for what I said about your uncle... I didn't mean it. I was thinking of making it up to you by taking you out to diner sometime?"
"Yeah that would be great." I say smiling big.
"Brilliant! Here's my number. Call me or text me when you're free for that diner." He says before giving me a quick peck on the cheeck and walking away.
"Ouf!" He says catching his breath. "I taught I was going to miss the elevator."
"It's not as if the elevator passes every hour." I say in a snobby, mean way.
"Well I'm already late for a meating with Simon Cowell. And well if you're here you probably know what he's like."
"Simon is my uncle." I reply looking at him with a death stare.
"Oh I'm sorry...?" He says asking for my name.
"Malin." I snap.
"I'm sorry Malin. I did not mean to offend you in any way. I was just stating that Simon can sometimes be..." He starts.
"No you're clearly saying that he's an ass. Well you kno what? You're one too." I say while putting my earphones in and playing my music at the max. A few minutes go by when all of a sudden, the lights in the elevator start to flicker and the elevator stops as the emergency lights turn on.
"Are you fucking kidding me!" I shout. The boy looks over at me and decides to sit down in as corner as I start to pace around in my crutches.
"You should sit down." He says trying to sound nice but I could hear a sharp tone in his voice.
"First you insult my uncle, then you give me orders." I snap at him.
"No I'm telling you to sit because we could be here a while and you are in crutches. " he says in an annoyed tone. I roll my eyes and sit down at the other end of the elevator. I curl up into a sort of ball, since my other leg was in a cast, and I hold on tighly to my pants and rock back and fort. I see from the corner of my eye the boy looking over at me. He was slowly moving close up next to me.
"I'm Louis by the way." He says once seated next to me. I fake a smile and a faint glance at him. " are you okay?"
" I am completely terrified of elevators." I tell him not looking into his eyes and holding back a few tears.
"Can I ?" He ask gesturing to put his arm around me. And in the moment I decided to push my hatred aside and let him. He then slowly and hesitantly put his arm around me. We sat in that position for over two hours until the elevator started to work again. He had spoken to me the whole time to keep my mind of things and it really helped.
*ding*
We finally heard the doors opening and a bunch of people standing I'm front of it waiting for us. Louis bleeped me up and brought me to the medics waiting at the other side of the door. As the medics were checking up on me Louis walked over and sat down next to me.
"I'm sorry for what I said about your uncle... I didn't mean it. I was thinking of making it up to you by taking you out to diner sometime?"
"Yeah that would be great." I say smiling big.
"Brilliant! Here's my number. Call me or text me when you're free for that diner." He says before giving me a quick peck on the cheeck and walking away.
Tuesday, August 26, 2014
Niall Imagine (Alexis)
"Taxi! Taxi!" I start yelling as I look down the streets of busy New York. I was going to a friends wedding and was already running late. It had taken me ages to pick the perfect outfit but I finally chose one.
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After yelling 'taxi!' for what seemed to be like ages, one finally stops and pulls up right next to me. Just as I hop into the car looking down into my clutch and telling the driver where to go, i hear someone else shut the door and say directions to the driver also. My head shoots up like a cannonball.
-"Scuse me. But I was in this cab before you." I tell the man next to me.
-''Then how come I'm in this cab also." The young blonde man tells me.
-''Look I've got a wedding to attend, and I'm already quite late. Now be a gentleman and grab another taxi." I start raising my voice.
-"Look I wish I could but I can't. Now we are going in the same direction so does it really matter? The driver will drop you off first then me. okay?" The man answers with an unfamiliar accent.
-"Fine." I reply after pouting for a few seconds. The young man smiles and sits back. A few awkward minutes go by in total silence and even the driver felt unconfortable.
-"You look stunning, by the way." The young foreign man says.
-''Thank you.'' I reply hiding a blush. I finally get a good look at him and damn did he look good.
-"My name is Niall." He says to try and make things less awkward.
-"I'm Alexis."
-"So who's wedding are you attending."
-"This women I work with. I don't really like her, but she begged me to come so I finally said yes."
-"So I'm guessing you don't really care about arriving late." He says laughing a bit.
-''Let's just say I'm going to be very fashionably late!" I say with a wink and laugh.
-"I'm sure that when you're going to walk trough the doors everyone is going to look at you in awe."
-"Why do you say that?"
-"Because you are by far going to be the prettiest women in there and no one will be able to keep their eyes off you." Niall tell's me and this time I could not hide my blush.
-''Oh stop it." I say looking down and giving him a little hit on the torso.
-"Hey, I don't lie. I always say what I think even when I shouldn't."
-"It's okay, I guess a compliment from time to time can't hurt." I say winking. We keep talking for a long while until the taxi stops in front of the venue where I would get out. I start going through my purse looking for change to pay.
-"Hey." Niall says.
-"Yes?" I ask looking into his deep blue eyes.
-"Why don't you ditch this wedding and come to this nice restaurant I heard about with me?" He asks me and I look around confused and think about his proposal for a while.
-"You know what? That sounds 100 times better then going to this wedding." I tell him and he smiles. He looks over at the cab driver and tells him an adress and then looks back at me.
-"This is going to be one heck of an expensive cab ride." I say laughing and Niall joins in.
-"Yes maybe but it will all be worth it." He says laughing but also sounding serious. And he was right about that, because a few years later he would bring me back to that same restaurant and propose to me.
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After yelling 'taxi!' for what seemed to be like ages, one finally stops and pulls up right next to me. Just as I hop into the car looking down into my clutch and telling the driver where to go, i hear someone else shut the door and say directions to the driver also. My head shoots up like a cannonball.
-"Scuse me. But I was in this cab before you." I tell the man next to me.
-''Then how come I'm in this cab also." The young blonde man tells me.
-''Look I've got a wedding to attend, and I'm already quite late. Now be a gentleman and grab another taxi." I start raising my voice.
-"Look I wish I could but I can't. Now we are going in the same direction so does it really matter? The driver will drop you off first then me. okay?" The man answers with an unfamiliar accent.
-"Fine." I reply after pouting for a few seconds. The young man smiles and sits back. A few awkward minutes go by in total silence and even the driver felt unconfortable.
-"You look stunning, by the way." The young foreign man says.
-''Thank you.'' I reply hiding a blush. I finally get a good look at him and damn did he look good.
-"My name is Niall." He says to try and make things less awkward.
-"I'm Alexis."
-"So who's wedding are you attending."
-"This women I work with. I don't really like her, but she begged me to come so I finally said yes."
-"So I'm guessing you don't really care about arriving late." He says laughing a bit.
-''Let's just say I'm going to be very fashionably late!" I say with a wink and laugh.
-"I'm sure that when you're going to walk trough the doors everyone is going to look at you in awe."
-"Why do you say that?"
-"Because you are by far going to be the prettiest women in there and no one will be able to keep their eyes off you." Niall tell's me and this time I could not hide my blush.
-''Oh stop it." I say looking down and giving him a little hit on the torso.
-"Hey, I don't lie. I always say what I think even when I shouldn't."
-"It's okay, I guess a compliment from time to time can't hurt." I say winking. We keep talking for a long while until the taxi stops in front of the venue where I would get out. I start going through my purse looking for change to pay.
-"Hey." Niall says.
-"Yes?" I ask looking into his deep blue eyes.
-"Why don't you ditch this wedding and come to this nice restaurant I heard about with me?" He asks me and I look around confused and think about his proposal for a while.
-"You know what? That sounds 100 times better then going to this wedding." I tell him and he smiles. He looks over at the cab driver and tells him an adress and then looks back at me.
-"This is going to be one heck of an expensive cab ride." I say laughing and Niall joins in.
-"Yes maybe but it will all be worth it." He says laughing but also sounding serious. And he was right about that, because a few years later he would bring me back to that same restaurant and propose to me.
Wednesday, August 13, 2014
Alone (Part 10)
I wake up the next morning later then usual, my hair was a complete mess, my eyes were all tired, and I felt very dirty. So I got up and walked over to the bathroom where I had already set out and outfit to wear today. I plugged my phone into my speaker and started blasting some one direction as I stepped into my steaming hot shower. I started dancing and singing along the each song in the shower, until little things started playing. Just as the song started I turned around to face the shower door and slipped. I grabbed on to the railings as quickly as possible and somehow managed to catch myself back up, but as I look around to the failling I caught, I see my scars. It's true that part of me just wanted to do it one last time but the I heard the chorus of little things start playing and I feel my courage come back. I decide to finish up quickly and get out of my room so those ideas didn't come back again.
As I start to walk around the rehab center it all seemed calm and empty. Usually I'd be in one of those classes they offer here but my nurse said to no attend any so I walked around and sad in the garden outside with a book a had borrowed from a friend I had made here. It was quite peaceful and calm as I drifted off into the book. I must have spend over 1h reading it before someone I had never seen before came and knock on my shoulder.
"Erica?" The young man said. From the way he was dressed I could tell he was as nurse but he must of just joined the team because he was very unfamiliar.
"Yeah?" I reply closing my book, that I was already halfway done.
"Come with me." He says helping me get up. He was walking me towards this part of the center I had never seen before, I had seen people enter this part but never come back, so I was kind of scared.
"Sit here, someone will come see you soon." He says. " and good luck out there!" He adds before disappearing down the corridor. Good luck out there? I keep repeating that sentence over and over woundering what it meant, until I saw my doctor walk out a room and telling me to come in. As I start waking into the room I see my mom and dad, my nanny Elizabeth and my rehab nurse all siting around a big table waiting for me and the doctor.
"I beg you are woundering what's going on?" My doctor asks me.
"Yeah kind of...?" I reply looking around the room
"Me and your parents have been talking for the past hour and I have been telling them all the precautions to take for your return, such as your visits you will have to come do starting with 3 times a week and gradually going down. But we have mostly been discussion about you're state in rehab." She tells me.
"Did I do something wrong?" I ask terrified.
"For a while we were thinking about sending you back home with the conditions I just named, but last week you had a kind of down, so we decided to not send you back right away. But last night when Harry came to visit, I was watching from a far how it went and so was your nurse, and well we have concluded...-" The doctor says looking at her files then back at me. " we have concluded that you are ready to be sent back home with these following conditions." The doctor says and keeps going on with the list of conditions but I just zone her out. I was overjoyed to finally go back home! All I wanted to so was text Harry and tell him the good news! But at the same time I was scared about going back home and relapsing. I quickly shake those dark thoughts out of my head and continue listening to the doctor.
~sorry for the short part :$ will write more soon!~Xxx
As I start to walk around the rehab center it all seemed calm and empty. Usually I'd be in one of those classes they offer here but my nurse said to no attend any so I walked around and sad in the garden outside with a book a had borrowed from a friend I had made here. It was quite peaceful and calm as I drifted off into the book. I must have spend over 1h reading it before someone I had never seen before came and knock on my shoulder.
"Erica?" The young man said. From the way he was dressed I could tell he was as nurse but he must of just joined the team because he was very unfamiliar.
"Yeah?" I reply closing my book, that I was already halfway done.
"Come with me." He says helping me get up. He was walking me towards this part of the center I had never seen before, I had seen people enter this part but never come back, so I was kind of scared.
"Sit here, someone will come see you soon." He says. " and good luck out there!" He adds before disappearing down the corridor. Good luck out there? I keep repeating that sentence over and over woundering what it meant, until I saw my doctor walk out a room and telling me to come in. As I start waking into the room I see my mom and dad, my nanny Elizabeth and my rehab nurse all siting around a big table waiting for me and the doctor.
"I beg you are woundering what's going on?" My doctor asks me.
"Yeah kind of...?" I reply looking around the room
"Me and your parents have been talking for the past hour and I have been telling them all the precautions to take for your return, such as your visits you will have to come do starting with 3 times a week and gradually going down. But we have mostly been discussion about you're state in rehab." She tells me.
"Did I do something wrong?" I ask terrified.
"For a while we were thinking about sending you back home with the conditions I just named, but last week you had a kind of down, so we decided to not send you back right away. But last night when Harry came to visit, I was watching from a far how it went and so was your nurse, and well we have concluded...-" The doctor says looking at her files then back at me. " we have concluded that you are ready to be sent back home with these following conditions." The doctor says and keeps going on with the list of conditions but I just zone her out. I was overjoyed to finally go back home! All I wanted to so was text Harry and tell him the good news! But at the same time I was scared about going back home and relapsing. I quickly shake those dark thoughts out of my head and continue listening to the doctor.
~sorry for the short part :$ will write more soon!~Xxx
Sunday, August 10, 2014
Alone (part 9)
*Harry POV*
The lads and I were on our way back to the hotel after our final concert of the tour, we were leaving the same night to head back home and we were all very stoked to go back and see our familly. But something changed that night, just one text changed my whole plans. We were supposed to go spend each two week with our familly's and then go and meet up in our London flat that we shared, but not me.
After I landed in Holmes Chaples where my mom picked me up, I explained to her my plans. She was sad to hear them but at the same time understood that it was an emergency. The week I spent with my mom and sister went by faster then I taught but I had to leave.
-"Harry take care okay." My mom tells me hugging me one last time before I hop on my train.
-"Mom I promise I will, and I'll be back soon okay." I reply pulling back from the hug.
-"Lilttle brother I know you can take care of yourself just fine, but just make sure you don't become the next reason for pushing that girl to her death." My sister tells me before hugging me.
-"I wont I swear!" I say giving her a smile and saying goodbye before stepping on my train. 'I'm comming for you Erica' I told myself as I looked out the window of the train while it started to puff away towards London.
*Erica's POV*
A week had gone by at my new rehab center (Nightingale Hospital), and it was all quite different. I had to start from scratch in therapy and learn how to trust and talk with new doctors I had never met. But today something felt different, there was a different vibe around here and I did not know what it was.
-"Miss Johnson." One of the nurses says opening up my room door just a crack. "There is someone requesting to see you."
-"But it's not visiting hours?" I tell her quite confused.
-"Yes I know, and usually we shoudn't allow them to come in and see you but this man won't leave until he gets to see you." She tell's me.
-"So...?" I ask wanted to know where she was going with all this.
-"We accepted his request and we will send him in shortly, but there will be a nurse standing out front of your open door listen up on the conversation and can interveen whenever she thinks the conversation can affect your rehabilitation." The nurse tell me and I smile.
A few minutes go by and a guy walks into my room dressed quite nicely.
-"Hello miss Johnson." The man says in a deep voice.
-"Hello Mister Styles." I say acting all cool and natural while resting back on my bed.
-"Now a little birdy has told me you are a big fan of my band but especially me." He says.
-"Well that might be a little bit of a lie but it's partly true."
-"Well what would you say to spend one hour with the one and only Harry Styles?"
-''I don't know that's a tough question but I think I'll have to say I'd rather spend it with the famous Louis Tomlinson." I say winking at Harry and laughing a bit.
-"Well then you'll still have to endure me for one hour because I'm not leaving until one of those nurses tells me to leave."
-"Fine then I guess, if I have to, I'll endure you for the hour." I try to say in a serious tone, but I couldn't help myself but laugh.
We talked for a whole hour about pretty much everything, he told me about his tour and I told him about how rehab has been but I knew in his eyes he wanted to know more, he wanted to know why.
-"Erica... please just tell me why you did this?" I finally asks and I look up at the nurse who was woundering if she should inteveen but I give her a look telling her it's okay.
-"After that phone call, so many things passed threw my mind. I tried to push it away and ignore it but it made me start to think...He's right, no one loved me, so I gave up on everything and told myself if no one actually loves me then why am I even here?" I start and I could see the pain in Harry's eyes. "Even when I woke up at the hospital I was enraged that I was still alive. I wanted to be done with my life already. It took my a long time to realize that my life was precious, and that people actually loved me. Gosh Harry you should of seen me when I first entered the rehab center back in Montreal! I was a mess!" I say laughing a bit at myself and so does he. "But with the therapy and all I realized that my life was precious and people actually loved me. My whole familly loved and they would fall apart if I had died. Elizabeth, my nanny, cares about me more then anyone in the world. My granny and grandpa love me also. And I know that may sound like no one but it's all I need."
-"You're a fighter you know." Harry says squeezing my hand tighly.
-"I know that I'll always be a bit insecure and scared, but whenever I'll look down at my scared covered wrist I'll remember all I've been trough and realize that I'm worth it." I finally say before the nurse walks into my room.
-"I think I have to go." Harry says looking up at the nurse and laughing a bit.
-"Yeah I think you do." I say laughing back. But before he leaves Harry takes me in his arms and hugs me for the longest time ever and gives me a soft kiss on the cheek then walks away. I can't help but smile while I look at him leave.
-"Erica it's cerfew, and tomorrow you won't be attending any of your schedualed therapy classes okay?" My personnal nurse says.
-"Why?" I ask while I settle under my blankets.
-"I don't know, but that's what your doctor told me to tell you." She replies before turning my light off and closing my door. Why would my therapy be canceled? I keep asking myself before falling asleep. I hope I didn't do something wrong.
The lads and I were on our way back to the hotel after our final concert of the tour, we were leaving the same night to head back home and we were all very stoked to go back and see our familly. But something changed that night, just one text changed my whole plans. We were supposed to go spend each two week with our familly's and then go and meet up in our London flat that we shared, but not me.
After I landed in Holmes Chaples where my mom picked me up, I explained to her my plans. She was sad to hear them but at the same time understood that it was an emergency. The week I spent with my mom and sister went by faster then I taught but I had to leave.
-"Harry take care okay." My mom tells me hugging me one last time before I hop on my train.
-"Mom I promise I will, and I'll be back soon okay." I reply pulling back from the hug.
-"Lilttle brother I know you can take care of yourself just fine, but just make sure you don't become the next reason for pushing that girl to her death." My sister tells me before hugging me.
-"I wont I swear!" I say giving her a smile and saying goodbye before stepping on my train. 'I'm comming for you Erica' I told myself as I looked out the window of the train while it started to puff away towards London.
*Erica's POV*
A week had gone by at my new rehab center (Nightingale Hospital), and it was all quite different. I had to start from scratch in therapy and learn how to trust and talk with new doctors I had never met. But today something felt different, there was a different vibe around here and I did not know what it was.
-"Miss Johnson." One of the nurses says opening up my room door just a crack. "There is someone requesting to see you."
-"But it's not visiting hours?" I tell her quite confused.
-"Yes I know, and usually we shoudn't allow them to come in and see you but this man won't leave until he gets to see you." She tell's me.
-"So...?" I ask wanted to know where she was going with all this.
-"We accepted his request and we will send him in shortly, but there will be a nurse standing out front of your open door listen up on the conversation and can interveen whenever she thinks the conversation can affect your rehabilitation." The nurse tell me and I smile.
A few minutes go by and a guy walks into my room dressed quite nicely.
-"Hello miss Johnson." The man says in a deep voice.
-"Hello Mister Styles." I say acting all cool and natural while resting back on my bed.
-"Now a little birdy has told me you are a big fan of my band but especially me." He says.
-"Well that might be a little bit of a lie but it's partly true."
-"Well what would you say to spend one hour with the one and only Harry Styles?"
-''I don't know that's a tough question but I think I'll have to say I'd rather spend it with the famous Louis Tomlinson." I say winking at Harry and laughing a bit.
-"Well then you'll still have to endure me for one hour because I'm not leaving until one of those nurses tells me to leave."
-"Fine then I guess, if I have to, I'll endure you for the hour." I try to say in a serious tone, but I couldn't help myself but laugh.
We talked for a whole hour about pretty much everything, he told me about his tour and I told him about how rehab has been but I knew in his eyes he wanted to know more, he wanted to know why.
-"Erica... please just tell me why you did this?" I finally asks and I look up at the nurse who was woundering if she should inteveen but I give her a look telling her it's okay.
-"After that phone call, so many things passed threw my mind. I tried to push it away and ignore it but it made me start to think...He's right, no one loved me, so I gave up on everything and told myself if no one actually loves me then why am I even here?" I start and I could see the pain in Harry's eyes. "Even when I woke up at the hospital I was enraged that I was still alive. I wanted to be done with my life already. It took my a long time to realize that my life was precious, and that people actually loved me. Gosh Harry you should of seen me when I first entered the rehab center back in Montreal! I was a mess!" I say laughing a bit at myself and so does he. "But with the therapy and all I realized that my life was precious and people actually loved me. My whole familly loved and they would fall apart if I had died. Elizabeth, my nanny, cares about me more then anyone in the world. My granny and grandpa love me also. And I know that may sound like no one but it's all I need."
-"You're a fighter you know." Harry says squeezing my hand tighly.
-"I know that I'll always be a bit insecure and scared, but whenever I'll look down at my scared covered wrist I'll remember all I've been trough and realize that I'm worth it." I finally say before the nurse walks into my room.
-"I think I have to go." Harry says looking up at the nurse and laughing a bit.
-"Yeah I think you do." I say laughing back. But before he leaves Harry takes me in his arms and hugs me for the longest time ever and gives me a soft kiss on the cheek then walks away. I can't help but smile while I look at him leave.
-"Erica it's cerfew, and tomorrow you won't be attending any of your schedualed therapy classes okay?" My personnal nurse says.
-"Why?" I ask while I settle under my blankets.
-"I don't know, but that's what your doctor told me to tell you." She replies before turning my light off and closing my door. Why would my therapy be canceled? I keep asking myself before falling asleep. I hope I didn't do something wrong.
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